Not dead.
Hey so I guess I am alive.
My life is at a constant pace. I like that.
I realized I got what I need. I have my baby. I have a job. I am going to school. I have a home. I have a family. I have my select but wonderful friends.
So with that conclusion I decided to stop worrying about everyone elses lifes and focus on mine.
No more stress for this Melody.
She has enough with what she needs to worry about.
I am on the market officially I guess you could say. Not that I'm looking or even trying. But the freedom is mine I suppose. I do like being at school.
I do like learning.
And I can't trust hardley anyone.
That suxs.
Its just life I suppose.
I didn't think I would miss Katie. But she is one person I can count on no matter what. She will always answer her phone- no matter what. I appreciate that more then I will ever be able to explain.
Plus----
I am sick of people trying to make me feel below them. I am sick of people making me think I am a horrible person or a liar. And this is were the only worrying about myself comes into play. Because I know I am not any of those things. And the people that know me.... know that I am not that either. One day there will be more of those people. Just not today.
Aria Update-
She is ten months old. She took her first steps this past weekend. First to food then to her dad. She is smart little girl but will only really try to walk if other babies are around. I can't believe how big she is. 2 months it will be a year. crazy. She is always in a good mood which leaks onto whomever may be around.
One thing I know I need to work on-----
Looking at life and things through the eyes of Melody again....not just a mommy.
With time.
My life is at a constant pace. I like that.
I realized I got what I need. I have my baby. I have a job. I am going to school. I have a home. I have a family. I have my select but wonderful friends.
So with that conclusion I decided to stop worrying about everyone elses lifes and focus on mine.
No more stress for this Melody.
She has enough with what she needs to worry about.
I am on the market officially I guess you could say. Not that I'm looking or even trying. But the freedom is mine I suppose. I do like being at school.
I do like learning.
And I can't trust hardley anyone.
That suxs.
Its just life I suppose.
I didn't think I would miss Katie. But she is one person I can count on no matter what. She will always answer her phone- no matter what. I appreciate that more then I will ever be able to explain.
Plus----
I am sick of people trying to make me feel below them. I am sick of people making me think I am a horrible person or a liar. And this is were the only worrying about myself comes into play. Because I know I am not any of those things. And the people that know me.... know that I am not that either. One day there will be more of those people. Just not today.
Aria Update-
She is ten months old. She took her first steps this past weekend. First to food then to her dad. She is smart little girl but will only really try to walk if other babies are around. I can't believe how big she is. 2 months it will be a year. crazy. She is always in a good mood which leaks onto whomever may be around.
One thing I know I need to work on-----
Looking at life and things through the eyes of Melody again....not just a mommy.
With time.