I'll spill my heart for you
Someone so kindly pointed out today that I've been very nostalgic lately. Which I'm not saying is a bad thing but its one of my things that I do when things are changing. Whenever I leave something behind I tend to look back on it and reminisce about all the things that happened.... usually the good. I think its my way of letting it go. Of realizing that its over and I'm moving on to other things. Plus I tend to hang on until I feel comfortable with what the future might hold. My future is so unclear there is only really one stable thing that is in it and thats her. I mean even my job is going crazy and who knows where it will end up. I have to still have a job but where is the main question. Its good to be working things out and not have everything be a roller coaster ride. Even though it will never end and this will always be apart of my life. At least its good to know that it will be some how be ok. She has changed my life completely. Everyone she comes into contact with she changes. If not at first than slowly. All of a sudden some people just don't matter any more. Their existence and hardships on my life are not worth the waste of time. Time I could be spending with her. She brings peace in her own little way. She has changed my family. Some how making it more complete. Who would have thought we were missing something. Being a mother is tough. You'll never realize what its like til you become one....or a father. But having her in my life is slowly saving me. It may be hard. It sure isn't ideal. But it doesn't matter.... its all worth it.