Lilith Remembers
{The world ended in pain}
"My birthday is in exactly five days. I can't wait! I think daddy is going to get me a new dolly. I know because I peeked. Don't Tell!" She smiles, "I know you won't"
I am standing in a room with someone who has the same eyes as me. Well, how they used to be. She is around 10 years old, clutching her teddy, looking up at me excitedly.
“Have you seen our swing? It’s over there.”
She points out the window. There is a man dressed in black. Suddenly I’m filled with terror, but I can’t remember why. Why does this seem so familiar? My heart feels as though it will burst from my chest. I look to the girl but she is gone. In her place is the man. He grabs me with a force that I have never felt. He says nothing as he squeezes the air from my lungs. The room goes…black.
As I open my eyes I find that I am in a small dark room facing the little girl who is tied to the chair. She is awake now and looks at me with eyes filled with tears.
“Help me. Please Help me! I didn’t do anything! I want my Dad. I want my daddy! Dad, Daddy Daddy!!!!!!!!!”
In comes the man. The dark man. The bad man. He crouches next to the little one who is now too afraid to move. He removes a blade from his coat and looks directly at me.
“What are YOU afraid of Lilith?”
Suddenly I’m in an office. There is a man He makes me feel warm and happy when I see him. But he is worn, tired. He stands opening a little black box. All the color drains from his face. A finger, a small delicate finger was in the box. His body trembles as he sinks to the floor.
“My little girl…my sweet baby…”
His voice shakes. I reach to touch him but my hand goes through.
“Dad, can you hear me?”
No response, just the sound of his stifled sobs
“I couldn’t protect you….I couldn’t pro..tect…”
I rush to embrace him. My father, my hero, and the strongest man I had ever known. I slip threw him; my face hits the wood floor. Defeated I rise to my knees to face him.
“Please dad, listen to me! Why can’t I touch you?!?!!...dad…”
My sentence is broken by the sobs. My entire body is shaking and I can’t breathe.
“I love you! Dad, just look at me! Why can’t you just look at me??? I’m right here!! I’m right here!!!!!!!!”
I wake up in a cold sweat. Tears still fresh on my face. I can’t breathe, I can’t…