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i feel sick, and my lips have gone numb. that's certainly new...
anxiety is back with a vengeance. i've been sleeping so much lately, and it is never enough. to even open the windows and turn on the tv is a struggle. forget all the things i hoped to accomplish this week, this is seemingly all i'm capable of.
panic strikes and my blood literally runs cold. i can't move. all i can do is sit and stare. i need someone, something, to help me break me out of this. too bad that i don't know what to even ask for.
but i got up at 5:45 and made breakfast, and i'm making myself sit in the living room instead of hiding under the covers, so that's something....right?
it just feels like nothing i do is ever enough. i'm terrified of the world. i thought i was over this feeling. and i can't find a psychiatrist or medication on a sliding scale or for free, and i can't work, and....
see? too much. it's all just too much.
x-posted.
anxiety is back with a vengeance. i've been sleeping so much lately, and it is never enough. to even open the windows and turn on the tv is a struggle. forget all the things i hoped to accomplish this week, this is seemingly all i'm capable of.
panic strikes and my blood literally runs cold. i can't move. all i can do is sit and stare. i need someone, something, to help me break me out of this. too bad that i don't know what to even ask for.
but i got up at 5:45 and made breakfast, and i'm making myself sit in the living room instead of hiding under the covers, so that's something....right?
it just feels like nothing i do is ever enough. i'm terrified of the world. i thought i was over this feeling. and i can't find a psychiatrist or medication on a sliding scale or for free, and i can't work, and....
see? too much. it's all just too much.
x-posted.