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oh man im such a pig lol
haha anyways its rainging
again, blahh but it at least its nice and cool out
=)
anyways Tom is kinda creepying me out.
he gave me his journal thing that he's been keeping.
he's kept it a secret like this whole time & than he IM's me telling me to read it and tell him what i think but i don't know what to say..
& like in every entry it'll say oh i miss rochelle, i want you rochelle, i need you rochelle ,blah blah blah stuff like that...
these were the ones that really said stuff..
Tuesday, August 22nd, 2004
10:22 pm sadness
i dont usualy do 2 entries in a day. but i feel torn right now. i feel like a friggen morron. ok heres the story. a couple days ago i start thinking its time to give up rochelle. and after that i started liking emily. i had really thought that i had givin up rochelle. and i felt good. cause all i was doing was hoping and waiting. i felt good. and i promised em that i had given up rochelle. and then this night i talked to rochelle. she tells me that she broke up with ben. and those of u who dont no i have been like obsessed with rochelle ever scince january. ive never liked anyone so long or so much b4. and then i talk to rochelle and i realize, i cant do it, im stuck on her. so i tell emily. i had to. i couldnt start liking rochelle again but make emily think i like her. now im a fuckin dusche bag. idk if em was starting to consider me or if shes just is shocked cuz i like rochelle all of the sudden. i think emily thinks that i was willing to date her wile liking rochelle, her best friend. i wasnt. i dont work like that, although alot of other people i no do. cough cough (olivia) cough cough. emily couldnt live with dating me wile i liked her bestfriend. and i couldnt either. u date someone because u love them. i dont see why some people date other people when they realy love some other person. the moment i started liking rochelle again i had to tell emily.
i consider me and emily like best friends. i love emily. we have such a good friendship. ive thought about taking our friendship one step further. i wanted to. i no that we would go well if we evr went out. and if things didnt, i no we would still be like best friends. but maybe a relationship would make things different. maybe we are just supposed to be really good friends. and maybe im bound to be in love with rochelle. idk. im so sry. i broke emilys promise and i think i might have broken our frienship. i feel so horrible right now. i really hope that we can get overthis.
Wednesday, August 29th, 2004
7:46 pm not subject
yay. im off groundation. i slept at nicos house the other night. and john slept over the night b4. and lately nuthin has been hapenin as usual. i love rochelle. i guess it pisses people off that i cant give her up. i cant. i cant control who i want. and im stuck on rochelle. sry if it makes u mad. but ive never loved anyone so much b4. or so long. i no, i say it all the time. but she realy is perfect. i no that no one is but she is in my eyes. sigh. i love her so much. i cant help it.
yeah its kinda weird..
i don't know that to tell him tho cause i really don't like him like that..
hmm whatever man i'll think of something.
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? BE HONEST.
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your Livejournal and see what I say about you?
haha anyways its rainging
again, blahh but it at least its nice and cool out
=)
anyways Tom is kinda creepying me out.
he gave me his journal thing that he's been keeping.
he's kept it a secret like this whole time & than he IM's me telling me to read it and tell him what i think but i don't know what to say..
& like in every entry it'll say oh i miss rochelle, i want you rochelle, i need you rochelle ,blah blah blah stuff like that...
these were the ones that really said stuff..
Tuesday, August 22nd, 2004
10:22 pm sadness
i dont usualy do 2 entries in a day. but i feel torn right now. i feel like a friggen morron. ok heres the story. a couple days ago i start thinking its time to give up rochelle. and after that i started liking emily. i had really thought that i had givin up rochelle. and i felt good. cause all i was doing was hoping and waiting. i felt good. and i promised em that i had given up rochelle. and then this night i talked to rochelle. she tells me that she broke up with ben. and those of u who dont no i have been like obsessed with rochelle ever scince january. ive never liked anyone so long or so much b4. and then i talk to rochelle and i realize, i cant do it, im stuck on her. so i tell emily. i had to. i couldnt start liking rochelle again but make emily think i like her. now im a fuckin dusche bag. idk if em was starting to consider me or if shes just is shocked cuz i like rochelle all of the sudden. i think emily thinks that i was willing to date her wile liking rochelle, her best friend. i wasnt. i dont work like that, although alot of other people i no do. cough cough (olivia) cough cough. emily couldnt live with dating me wile i liked her bestfriend. and i couldnt either. u date someone because u love them. i dont see why some people date other people when they realy love some other person. the moment i started liking rochelle again i had to tell emily.
i consider me and emily like best friends. i love emily. we have such a good friendship. ive thought about taking our friendship one step further. i wanted to. i no that we would go well if we evr went out. and if things didnt, i no we would still be like best friends. but maybe a relationship would make things different. maybe we are just supposed to be really good friends. and maybe im bound to be in love with rochelle. idk. im so sry. i broke emilys promise and i think i might have broken our frienship. i feel so horrible right now. i really hope that we can get overthis.
Wednesday, August 29th, 2004
7:46 pm not subject
yay. im off groundation. i slept at nicos house the other night. and john slept over the night b4. and lately nuthin has been hapenin as usual. i love rochelle. i guess it pisses people off that i cant give her up. i cant. i cant control who i want. and im stuck on rochelle. sry if it makes u mad. but ive never loved anyone so much b4. or so long. i no, i say it all the time. but she realy is perfect. i no that no one is but she is in my eyes. sigh. i love her so much. i cant help it.
yeah its kinda weird..
i don't know that to tell him tho cause i really don't like him like that..
hmm whatever man i'll think of something.
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I? BE HONEST.
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your Livejournal and see what I say about you?