after the real pain comes understanding and faith
it has been a long long while since I last posted and a long long roller coaster it has been.
i wish not to disclose any details but the mere fact that i am so tired yet my fighting power is still burning, more than ever, i must admit.
again, i have been set aside, yet i am not giving up - AGAIN...
something in me wont let her do this, but why, i do not know. all i know is that right now i also need time on my own, as much as it hurts to not be able to see the person i love so very much.
i have never felt will power like this. and pride, wow, is apparently non existent in my whole being. most people would say this is a good thing yet sometimes i think it would be easier if i had it in me.
but it isn't. love is really my only driving force right now. and i keep hoping, praying and keeping positive because i know deep in my entire being that she will come back to me.
i just have to keep having faith and being strong.
we will get through this, i just know it.
i wish not to disclose any details but the mere fact that i am so tired yet my fighting power is still burning, more than ever, i must admit.
again, i have been set aside, yet i am not giving up - AGAIN...
something in me wont let her do this, but why, i do not know. all i know is that right now i also need time on my own, as much as it hurts to not be able to see the person i love so very much.
i have never felt will power like this. and pride, wow, is apparently non existent in my whole being. most people would say this is a good thing yet sometimes i think it would be easier if i had it in me.
but it isn't. love is really my only driving force right now. and i keep hoping, praying and keeping positive because i know deep in my entire being that she will come back to me.
i just have to keep having faith and being strong.
we will get through this, i just know it.