it such a sad life really...
im such a hypocrite...
i am the sad pathetic one now. and guess what, there is nobody to lean to. like always. story of my life. i always have to be the one that stands on her own making it all better for herself. but what if i don't want to do that anymore! does that make me the horrible, pathetic one that cant suck it in and smile even if she wants to just cry. i want to be vulnerable. i want to cry. i want to stop having to be so goddam strong all the time. the irony. be strong to enough to break free from the strength.
really, i just want to be loved. i just want to have someone to turn to when i want to have a hug, when i want to sneak a sweet little kiss, or even just some to say sweet nothings to when i feel like it, without having to have a concrete made-up reason for what i want to say. i am craving the love that most people just throw away. i am yearning for that feeling of importance, even if its just being important to just that one individual. i want love, the kind that makes you smile even when life is one big shit hole. that way, everything will be so much more worth it. life would make so much more sense. love would make it all better.
i crave to be loved...
dear universe, will i ever again be allowed to taste that sweet spark that only love can conjure?
i am the sad pathetic one now. and guess what, there is nobody to lean to. like always. story of my life. i always have to be the one that stands on her own making it all better for herself. but what if i don't want to do that anymore! does that make me the horrible, pathetic one that cant suck it in and smile even if she wants to just cry. i want to be vulnerable. i want to cry. i want to stop having to be so goddam strong all the time. the irony. be strong to enough to break free from the strength.
really, i just want to be loved. i just want to have someone to turn to when i want to have a hug, when i want to sneak a sweet little kiss, or even just some to say sweet nothings to when i feel like it, without having to have a concrete made-up reason for what i want to say. i am craving the love that most people just throw away. i am yearning for that feeling of importance, even if its just being important to just that one individual. i want love, the kind that makes you smile even when life is one big shit hole. that way, everything will be so much more worth it. life would make so much more sense. love would make it all better.
i crave to be loved...
dear universe, will i ever again be allowed to taste that sweet spark that only love can conjure?