Jan 07, 2006 17:10
Today has been rough. My parents are still at odds. My mom doesn't know what to do. My dad doesn't know what to do. I don't know what to do. My dad still came into my room today and asked me what he should do. I just told him that I didn't know. I'm not going to tell a grown man what he should do with his failing marriage. He dug himself into the hole and he should lie in it. I have no control. My mother is the strong one. She has been dealing with it and not once as she asked me what she should do. She has cried in front of me but that is all. I'm thankful that she did not ask me because I would have said the same thing to her that I said to my dad.
Will my mom give my dad another chance? At this point I don't really know. She has already given him one chance and that is one more than I would have given him. He's so lucky that my mom is trying to work things out after tweny some years of marriage. So lucky.
Do I want things to work out with my parents? I really don't know to be honest with you. If they fight like this all the time then no I don't want them together. My mom has voiced that she doesn't trust my dad anymore. She doesn't believe a word that he says and she doesn't think that she ever will. I'm proud of her for that. He has told her nothing but a pack of lies thus far.
Today, my mom made my dad write the other woman's husband a letter telling him what they did. I don't know how her husband is going to react. Will he call the house? Will the divorce his wife? I don't know and I don't think that I care. It's just the fact of the matter that the truth is coming out and my mom feels that the husband should know what kind of woman he has married because the other woman has been harassing my mother. She has been calling the house all day. I just wanted to pick up the phone and tell that woman to leave us the hell alone and that she has done enough to destroy our family.
The funny thing is that I don't think my father or the other woman knew exactly how they would effect anyone around them. They were just doing what they were doing not thinking about the people they would lose and the people they would hurt along the way. Selfish pricks! That's what I think about them right now. How dare they fucking do this to my family!! They deserve whatever negative treatment they get. They took for granted the very arms that they could run to in a time of crisis. It makes me sick!
This is so draining. I hate it. I hate the fact that I am going to have to go back to school feeling negative. I hate the fact that I am going to have to worry about what the hell is going to happen this week while I'm back at school. I hate this! I hate this! I can't repeat it enough.
I'm just grateful that I have people in my life that care about that care about me. Thank you all for your thoughts. It means a lot to me to know that you are here for me.