goddamnit
gym-usual talks w. paul
italian-slept. was woken up by ed putting headphones on my ears and blasting music. lovely haha. then went to the IMC w. him. bought a cd from jeff gill. word.
creative writing-my mom works with mr. espinozas mother-in-law *blinks* weird
history-movie
lunch-usual
math-usual
science-made weird noises with britt and allison =o)
english-romeo and juliet movie. ROMEO IS HOTT haha danielle
waited around after school w. danielle. then we walked home. saw the scotch plains baseball team, and adam said hey to me haha i miss that kid. and then on the way home some sleezey ass guys pulled over next to us sayin "hey yo ma, wanna ride?" um HELLO ARE YOU STUPID? like im really going to get in a car with three guys who i dont know. stupid fuckers. and then the guy in the back seat was like "YO YOU GIRLS SMOKE?! I GOT SOME SHIT IN HERE!"... losers. as they pulled away they screamed "YOU GIRLS ARE LOOKIN FUCKIN HOTTTTT" yea, kill yourself.
chilled with danielle for a lil. talked about A LOT of things. then ang came and picked her up. then red came over for a lil lookin for my brother. i chilled w. him for a lil and then he left to go find wherever the hell he went.
now im here. doing nothing. i just wanna crawl in a hole. almost 5 months without josh... ugh. it was so weird seeing red here today, yet no josh. i keep thinking one day he's just going to walk through my door looking for gerard. God i miss him.
plus, it seems like nowadays all my friends are having luck in the boy department but me. they ALL have someone. and if not a boyfriend, then like a million guys who like them. and as for little old me - NO ONE. absolutely no one. fucking alone as always. and im sick and tired of it. i don't want a million guys to like me, i just want one. just one who likes me and who i like in return. someone who wont be a complete asshole to me. someone who wont mess with my mind, use me, or fucking cheat on me like the rest of them did. who knows, maybe its a sign im either not meant to have someone, or im just doomed to assholes.
whatever.
italian-slept. was woken up by ed putting headphones on my ears and blasting music. lovely haha. then went to the IMC w. him. bought a cd from jeff gill. word.
creative writing-my mom works with mr. espinozas mother-in-law *blinks* weird
history-movie
lunch-usual
math-usual
science-made weird noises with britt and allison =o)
english-romeo and juliet movie. ROMEO IS HOTT haha danielle
waited around after school w. danielle. then we walked home. saw the scotch plains baseball team, and adam said hey to me haha i miss that kid. and then on the way home some sleezey ass guys pulled over next to us sayin "hey yo ma, wanna ride?" um HELLO ARE YOU STUPID? like im really going to get in a car with three guys who i dont know. stupid fuckers. and then the guy in the back seat was like "YO YOU GIRLS SMOKE?! I GOT SOME SHIT IN HERE!"... losers. as they pulled away they screamed "YOU GIRLS ARE LOOKIN FUCKIN HOTTTTT" yea, kill yourself.
chilled with danielle for a lil. talked about A LOT of things. then ang came and picked her up. then red came over for a lil lookin for my brother. i chilled w. him for a lil and then he left to go find wherever the hell he went.
now im here. doing nothing. i just wanna crawl in a hole. almost 5 months without josh... ugh. it was so weird seeing red here today, yet no josh. i keep thinking one day he's just going to walk through my door looking for gerard. God i miss him.
plus, it seems like nowadays all my friends are having luck in the boy department but me. they ALL have someone. and if not a boyfriend, then like a million guys who like them. and as for little old me - NO ONE. absolutely no one. fucking alone as always. and im sick and tired of it. i don't want a million guys to like me, i just want one. just one who likes me and who i like in return. someone who wont be a complete asshole to me. someone who wont mess with my mind, use me, or fucking cheat on me like the rest of them did. who knows, maybe its a sign im either not meant to have someone, or im just doomed to assholes.
whatever.