...why's it so hard...

[bella4you]

i don't know why i can't just tell people i care about the most how i truly feel about things ...or why i really do something...i guess it's cause i'm worried the truth will scare them off. When people i could care less about ask me why i do or feel something, i just tell them "because i like to" or "because that's the way i feel"...but when people

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lost whom?

[anonymous]

who have you lost?

Re: lost whom?

[bella4you]

To whomever wrote this question...the answer is michael from mississippi. As to why i think this, hmm...let's see...i didn't get a phone call, an email, and not even an instant message from him on my birthday. I understand that we had a big argument, but still...it was my birthday, it mattered so much to me. Not to mention I left like ten instant messages for his away message the same night we had the argument and all were about how i am sorry, stuff concerning our argument, and about how i wanted him to call me when he got the messages. And then today, I was supposed to get flowers at work from him, but they didn't come, so he must have cancelled their being sent. I know i don't own him, i know that we're not dating...but i care about him so very much and i wish that he would just call me and tell me everything's okay between us. <3KeL*

p.s. by the way, who is this??

Re: lost whom?

[anonymous]

Well why does it matter if your not dating him? And why didnt you call him back if it was so important?

Re: lost whom?

[bella4you]

Call him back when though? He never called except today...and when he called today he said he would be calling back. ...so why would i call him back when he said he'd call back? i mean, i was expecting him to call me back, so i didn't think i should pick up the phone and call him...don't get me wrong, i wanted to, but i thought that since he said he'd call, he'd call when he was ready to ...and it really doesn't matter that i'm not dating him, i just didn't want you or anyone else to think i was being possessive...but in all honest truth, i cannot help but feel like being possessive...not that he's a possession...just, i care s-o much about him...he understands me in a way no one else does, he lets me be who i am in every area of my personality/lifestyle, unlike anyone else i've ever met. oh and the night we argued, i called his house, but no one picked up...which just made me think he was ignoring me...which hurt. maybe i misunderstood...but that's how i felt...that's all. but understand he really does mean s-o much to me..no matter

Re: lost whom?

[anonymous]

Why arnt yall dating if he understands you so well?

Re: lost whom?

[bella4you]

First off, why can't you tell me who you are? ...i keep asking, but you never tell me. And secondly, to answer your question...'cause he lives in Mississippi...so technically we can't date. ya know?
<3 KeL*

Re: lost whom?

[anonymous]

Dang that really sucks. Do you absolutely have to know who i am?

Re: lost whom?

[bella4you]

i don't h-a-v-e to know...but i'd really like to!...

Re: lost whom?

[anonymous]

I dont think so. I think I'll ask more questions. This is quite interesting.

Re: lost whom?

[bella4you]

but i want to know! ...i know i'm whining right here...but i would like to know v-e-r-y much...i don't like not knowing things. plus, i refuse to answer anymore questions until i know who you are...so there. <3 KeL*

Re: lost whom?

[anonymous]

Well I guess you will never find out who this is then? Mike if you read these and use aim or ICQ reply w/ your s/n.

Re: lost whom?

[bella4you]

...so you're a friend of Michael's? ...just say your name then.
<3KeL*