Still on my mind...
Mostly in my heart. I am still dreaming of him nightly. I miss his smile, the way he would look at me, I even miss his ball busting!
I just plain old miss him, and I dont really know or understand why. Why would I miss someone who apparently doesnt miss me? Who just casually read my letter and had nothing to say about it, nothing!
It has left me in a state of confusion. Not knowing for sure how he feels, if he feels anything at all.
I am totally fine during the day. I think of him at certain times though. Just remembering when he would call me around 12:30 everyday at work. Or at 2 if he didnt get me before 1 cuz Id go to lunch. And Saturday night when I was out with the girls, it was the FIRST time in almost a year that I went right home after the club. Was kinda sad that the phone didnt ring. Though if it did I probably wouldnt have gone there anyway. I said to Amy, I wonder if he thinks of me at all? I really do. Or if he has just moved on and doesnt care.
I dont know...I just wish I could talk to him!
Anyway I think I am gonna take a break dating for a while. There isnt anything prosperous out there anyway so Im better off. I cant deal with guys bullshit anymore.
I was listening to some music last night and decided to play "All Cried Out" by Lisa Lisa. These lines describe EXACTLY how I feel right now:
I, I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure
My heart never knew such pain
And you, You leave me so confused
Now Im all cried out
Over you...
Write later
Me
I just plain old miss him, and I dont really know or understand why. Why would I miss someone who apparently doesnt miss me? Who just casually read my letter and had nothing to say about it, nothing!
It has left me in a state of confusion. Not knowing for sure how he feels, if he feels anything at all.
I am totally fine during the day. I think of him at certain times though. Just remembering when he would call me around 12:30 everyday at work. Or at 2 if he didnt get me before 1 cuz Id go to lunch. And Saturday night when I was out with the girls, it was the FIRST time in almost a year that I went right home after the club. Was kinda sad that the phone didnt ring. Though if it did I probably wouldnt have gone there anyway. I said to Amy, I wonder if he thinks of me at all? I really do. Or if he has just moved on and doesnt care.
I dont know...I just wish I could talk to him!
Anyway I think I am gonna take a break dating for a while. There isnt anything prosperous out there anyway so Im better off. I cant deal with guys bullshit anymore.
I was listening to some music last night and decided to play "All Cried Out" by Lisa Lisa. These lines describe EXACTLY how I feel right now:
I, I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure
My heart never knew such pain
And you, You leave me so confused
Now Im all cried out
Over you...
Write later
Me