UPDATE
Ok...well its been a week since I wrote in here
Last weeks visit was WONDERFUL. He still looked like him, was in good spirits and we laughed alot. The end of the week was HORRIBLE!
Friday he got his diagnosis......Soft Cell Sarcoma. One of the rarest forms of Cancer to get. That is why it took the Dr's so long to come up with a diagnosis. The Cancer is in Stage 4 as well so that was even worse news. (For those who dont know there are 5 stages of Cancer, 4 and 5 are the WORST). They performed surgery on him Friday, and blasted his bosy with Radiation. They also gave him 2 rounds of Chemo one Saturday and one on Sunday. Danny spoke to him yesterday and he said his stomahc is in excrutiating pain.
I can only imagine.......
I cried so much over the weekend. More than I have cried in years. Those uncontrollable tears when you feel like you are going to throw up? Ya thats how intense I was crying. Work let me go home early which was really nice of them. I just couldnt pull it together. I was also VERY numb. My stomach was in knots (still is to be honest). All I keep thinking about is this BULLSHIT he is going through! How unfair it is and how I wish more than anything I could make it all go away!
Now he is fighting for his life...at fucking 28 years old he is fighting for his life! Right now he is in the depths of hell. I wouldnt wish this upon ANYONE....Cancer is the most horrible thing to suffer from. I HATE IT!!!!
All I have been doingis praying, hoping, believing he will survive. The Dr's are being optimistic because he is young and otherwise healthy. But its basically up to him. He has to have the will and the strength. I am hoping that with all of us around him, reminding him of how much we love and care about him that he will fight. Fight to the very fucking end!
He is going home tomorrow, then he will receive Chemo 3 times a week at Dana Farber. Thats gonna be fun! Poor bastard.....
At least at home he can get some sleep. And be more comfortable. Not having people poking and proding at you 24/7
This whole thing has made me reflect and think about life so differently. It really doesnt matter what you do to your body, Cancer is like a game of chance. You either get it or you dont. There is not get out of jail free card to save your ass. What pisses me off most is that its the RAREST form....why the fuck couldnt he get something like testicular or colon?? At least they can cure those for sure!
Its all in Gods hands now.....I just hope he chooses to keep Brian here. We all need him still.....it's not his time to go.
Please continue to pray for him....
Thanks
A-Lo
Last weeks visit was WONDERFUL. He still looked like him, was in good spirits and we laughed alot. The end of the week was HORRIBLE!
Friday he got his diagnosis......Soft Cell Sarcoma. One of the rarest forms of Cancer to get. That is why it took the Dr's so long to come up with a diagnosis. The Cancer is in Stage 4 as well so that was even worse news. (For those who dont know there are 5 stages of Cancer, 4 and 5 are the WORST). They performed surgery on him Friday, and blasted his bosy with Radiation. They also gave him 2 rounds of Chemo one Saturday and one on Sunday. Danny spoke to him yesterday and he said his stomahc is in excrutiating pain.
I can only imagine.......
I cried so much over the weekend. More than I have cried in years. Those uncontrollable tears when you feel like you are going to throw up? Ya thats how intense I was crying. Work let me go home early which was really nice of them. I just couldnt pull it together. I was also VERY numb. My stomach was in knots (still is to be honest). All I keep thinking about is this BULLSHIT he is going through! How unfair it is and how I wish more than anything I could make it all go away!
Now he is fighting for his life...at fucking 28 years old he is fighting for his life! Right now he is in the depths of hell. I wouldnt wish this upon ANYONE....Cancer is the most horrible thing to suffer from. I HATE IT!!!!
All I have been doingis praying, hoping, believing he will survive. The Dr's are being optimistic because he is young and otherwise healthy. But its basically up to him. He has to have the will and the strength. I am hoping that with all of us around him, reminding him of how much we love and care about him that he will fight. Fight to the very fucking end!
He is going home tomorrow, then he will receive Chemo 3 times a week at Dana Farber. Thats gonna be fun! Poor bastard.....
At least at home he can get some sleep. And be more comfortable. Not having people poking and proding at you 24/7
This whole thing has made me reflect and think about life so differently. It really doesnt matter what you do to your body, Cancer is like a game of chance. You either get it or you dont. There is not get out of jail free card to save your ass. What pisses me off most is that its the RAREST form....why the fuck couldnt he get something like testicular or colon?? At least they can cure those for sure!
Its all in Gods hands now.....I just hope he chooses to keep Brian here. We all need him still.....it's not his time to go.
Please continue to pray for him....
Thanks
A-Lo