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Well what a couple of months it has been! So much crap has happened, so much has changed.
I have cast backstabbing inconsiderate "friends" out of my life, suffered yet ANOTHER broken heart, fought with retarded bridesmaids, stressed about where my life is heading. And ya know what.......IM FINE!
I knew I would be, but I am finally on the other side of the fence. And my heart is actually at ease. I am content with the decisions I have made and now I am only concentrating on one person......ME!
My happiness and what I want is what is most important to me right now. I am happy in my job, I bought a new car that 2 years ago I could NEVER afford, I have lost some weight and if I can keep my gym stamina up I will lose more. And I met the most AMAZING man!
Its that guy Mike I went out with a couple weeks ago. He blows my mind! That feeling I said I was looking for, the one I only had for Mr Forbes........well I have it again! I never thought I would feel that way again, but I do. As much as it scares the holy bejesus out of me, I like it! He is so sweet, considerate, caring. The things he says to me sometimes make my jaw drop. Kinda like OMG I am usually the one to say those things! Two days ago I thought I was gonna lose him because he went to join the Army Reserve (ya I know meet a GREAT guy finally and he takes off!) but he went for his physical yesterday and failed! You know me and how I believe EVERYTHING happens for a reason.....well there is a reason he is staying and now we have a chance to explore how we feel for each other.
I dont know if I mentioned my biggest qualm about dating him was the fact that he has a child (he has been divorced for 5 years, his son will be 6.) His ex wife lives in Florida but he told me she is moving back here in June. Which I think is great for him because he will get to spend more time with his son. I really dont have any concerns about her. He reassured me about that. See in the past I would NEVER date a guy with a kid but I am SOOOOOO happy I thought twice about it this time. If I didnt then I could have missed out on such an amazing man!
I am smitten right now lol......does that seem silly?
Its hard to explain....like when I am with him all he does is hug me, kiss me, hold my hand, put his arm around me. All the things I wanted from Mr B but knew I would never get. Its so refreshing to be with a man who isnt afraid to show how he feels. I LOVE it!!!!
I just hope as time passes we grow closer. We both decided to wait a while to have sex. We wanna be sure that this is right, that we get to know each other really well, this way if after a few months we are like hmmm it wont hurt to walk away. Sex changes EVERYTHING, so I totally agree with him to wait. And I think its kinda sexy that he respects me THAT much and wants to be in love with me first. WOW!! Is this for real??? lol
I went from being in the depths of holy hell, back up to cloud 9 in Heaven.
Could this be what I have always wanted? Stay tuned to find out!
Write later
A-Lo
I have cast backstabbing inconsiderate "friends" out of my life, suffered yet ANOTHER broken heart, fought with retarded bridesmaids, stressed about where my life is heading. And ya know what.......IM FINE!
I knew I would be, but I am finally on the other side of the fence. And my heart is actually at ease. I am content with the decisions I have made and now I am only concentrating on one person......ME!
My happiness and what I want is what is most important to me right now. I am happy in my job, I bought a new car that 2 years ago I could NEVER afford, I have lost some weight and if I can keep my gym stamina up I will lose more. And I met the most AMAZING man!
Its that guy Mike I went out with a couple weeks ago. He blows my mind! That feeling I said I was looking for, the one I only had for Mr Forbes........well I have it again! I never thought I would feel that way again, but I do. As much as it scares the holy bejesus out of me, I like it! He is so sweet, considerate, caring. The things he says to me sometimes make my jaw drop. Kinda like OMG I am usually the one to say those things! Two days ago I thought I was gonna lose him because he went to join the Army Reserve (ya I know meet a GREAT guy finally and he takes off!) but he went for his physical yesterday and failed! You know me and how I believe EVERYTHING happens for a reason.....well there is a reason he is staying and now we have a chance to explore how we feel for each other.
I dont know if I mentioned my biggest qualm about dating him was the fact that he has a child (he has been divorced for 5 years, his son will be 6.) His ex wife lives in Florida but he told me she is moving back here in June. Which I think is great for him because he will get to spend more time with his son. I really dont have any concerns about her. He reassured me about that. See in the past I would NEVER date a guy with a kid but I am SOOOOOO happy I thought twice about it this time. If I didnt then I could have missed out on such an amazing man!
I am smitten right now lol......does that seem silly?
Its hard to explain....like when I am with him all he does is hug me, kiss me, hold my hand, put his arm around me. All the things I wanted from Mr B but knew I would never get. Its so refreshing to be with a man who isnt afraid to show how he feels. I LOVE it!!!!
I just hope as time passes we grow closer. We both decided to wait a while to have sex. We wanna be sure that this is right, that we get to know each other really well, this way if after a few months we are like hmmm it wont hurt to walk away. Sex changes EVERYTHING, so I totally agree with him to wait. And I think its kinda sexy that he respects me THAT much and wants to be in love with me first. WOW!! Is this for real??? lol
I went from being in the depths of holy hell, back up to cloud 9 in Heaven.
Could this be what I have always wanted? Stay tuned to find out!
Write later
A-Lo