subject combinations next year
So, this officially sucks.
I always told people that I think I'd get the literature combination for next year, mainly because "not many people might want it". What I meant then was that few people like and want literature, so there'll be vacancy for me next year. Little did I know that all BECAUSE of the really, really, really, REALLY, few people who chose literature in their combination, I did NOT get the combination.
I don't get to take literature next year, and that's the same for the rest of the few EIGHT people who wanted literature.
My school is not offering literature.
My bloody hell stupid school is not offering literature to the whole grade of secondary threes next year!!!
Gosh, I've never hated my school more than this.
What would other schools say? "Jurong doesn't have literature? That's shameful, they must not have any literature-ish people at all."
What would my seniors and those graduated people from my school say? "My gosh, this batch of people has no creative people."
Okay, maybe not liking or wanting to take literature does not mean not creative, but literature is IMPORTANT and the fact that so few people in my batch want it, shows that my school doesn't have many people who believe that literature is important. It's like a symbol, showing that culture exists. My school doesn't have any bloody culture.
Still, I think 8 people is alright, if there are people at all, 8 people is great. Why can't they just teach us 8 people??
Mister Chen says there aren't enough literature teachers to teach us.
More like not enough literature teachers willing to teach us.
Don't the teachers want us to study literature? It shows that we are interested in culture and the beauty of literary works!
Urrgghh.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
My current combination for next year:
English, Additional Maths, Elementary Maths, Chinese, Pure Chemistry, Pure Physics, Elective Geography, and Core History.
What if I can't take Literature in Junior College?
If that happens, I'll bang on the school gates demanding to see the Jurong principal and just shout at how my dreams and chances at pursuing literature are ruined, all because of them.
I sound exaggerating, yeah, but that's because I'm so angry at them!
My sister says some of her friends didn't take Literature in secondary school but are able to take it in JC, so that sounds promising...
But. What if it's really hard to cope? If I don't learn it next year and the year after that, it might be hard for me in JC. JC is already much harder than secondary school, so I'm not sure I might be able to take it if I don't continue learning it where I am right now.
I should have never came to Jurong.
I've been playing The Fray's songs on repeat. They're serving as some sort of remedy for my... I don't think it counts as depression. Or a simple "sadness". So probably it's my frustration. Yeah, frustration sounds right.
I watched the How To Save A Life's DVD video once more, and it does work. I'm feeling so much better now.
I'm not focusing on how angry I am at my school, principal and teachers, and also how angry I am at them for spoiling my chances...
My mom wants to enroll me in those courses where I can learn literature outside, but really, I don't think there are much out there. I want to be learning what the rest of the secondary schools are learning and take the O-Levels. Do many outside-school courses offer that??
The answer to that is: doubtful.
..............
Let's talk about something else other than that... Mister Edgerton sent me a facebook message, thanking me for that picture frame I made for him. Ha ha, made me really happy about that. Until I scanned the message and saw where he said that my writing has improved throughout the period when he taught me. He said he knows I'll continue to improve next year and told me good luck.
Those words made me go :(
No one has ever really encouraged me so much about my writing than Mister Edgerton.
My classmates all just tease and make fun of me, about how I do great for an essay/composition. They just say, "It's xueting, what do you expect??", or "What? Her again??", or saying on Facebook that I'd publish an amazing essay when asked what I'd do with a million dollars (Wei yuan), and that isn't complimenting. It sounds as though they're saying it... sarcastically. What, is it so bad to have a love for writing and literature?
Today when Mister Chen announced that literature is dropped, jiaxin, vyshnavi, shirley, vanessa, chingwen, calvin and jia wei all went throwing looks in my direction. Calvin said, "Xueting, don't be sad already!" and Jia Wei was laughing (LAUGHING, can you believe it?!) and said, "Xueting, you crying, huh?"
It was so hard trying to contain all that anger, frustration and sadness altogether so that they won't see and make fun of it.
Okay I know I'm sticking to this stupid subject for so long... sorry.
Still repeating The Fray songs all the way. They're making this so much better for me, I LOVE THE BOYS.
Hoping that this won't be as bad as I think it will be :/
I always told people that I think I'd get the literature combination for next year, mainly because "not many people might want it". What I meant then was that few people like and want literature, so there'll be vacancy for me next year. Little did I know that all BECAUSE of the really, really, really, REALLY, few people who chose literature in their combination, I did NOT get the combination.
I don't get to take literature next year, and that's the same for the rest of the few EIGHT people who wanted literature.
My school is not offering literature.
My bloody hell stupid school is not offering literature to the whole grade of secondary threes next year!!!
Gosh, I've never hated my school more than this.
What would other schools say? "Jurong doesn't have literature? That's shameful, they must not have any literature-ish people at all."
What would my seniors and those graduated people from my school say? "My gosh, this batch of people has no creative people."
Okay, maybe not liking or wanting to take literature does not mean not creative, but literature is IMPORTANT and the fact that so few people in my batch want it, shows that my school doesn't have many people who believe that literature is important. It's like a symbol, showing that culture exists. My school doesn't have any bloody culture.
Still, I think 8 people is alright, if there are people at all, 8 people is great. Why can't they just teach us 8 people??
Mister Chen says there aren't enough literature teachers to teach us.
More like not enough literature teachers willing to teach us.
Don't the teachers want us to study literature? It shows that we are interested in culture and the beauty of literary works!
Urrgghh.
I don't know what I'm going to do.
My current combination for next year:
English, Additional Maths, Elementary Maths, Chinese, Pure Chemistry, Pure Physics, Elective Geography, and Core History.
What if I can't take Literature in Junior College?
If that happens, I'll bang on the school gates demanding to see the Jurong principal and just shout at how my dreams and chances at pursuing literature are ruined, all because of them.
I sound exaggerating, yeah, but that's because I'm so angry at them!
My sister says some of her friends didn't take Literature in secondary school but are able to take it in JC, so that sounds promising...
But. What if it's really hard to cope? If I don't learn it next year and the year after that, it might be hard for me in JC. JC is already much harder than secondary school, so I'm not sure I might be able to take it if I don't continue learning it where I am right now.
I should have never came to Jurong.
I've been playing The Fray's songs on repeat. They're serving as some sort of remedy for my... I don't think it counts as depression. Or a simple "sadness". So probably it's my frustration. Yeah, frustration sounds right.
I watched the How To Save A Life's DVD video once more, and it does work. I'm feeling so much better now.
I'm not focusing on how angry I am at my school, principal and teachers, and also how angry I am at them for spoiling my chances...
My mom wants to enroll me in those courses where I can learn literature outside, but really, I don't think there are much out there. I want to be learning what the rest of the secondary schools are learning and take the O-Levels. Do many outside-school courses offer that??
The answer to that is: doubtful.
..............
Let's talk about something else other than that... Mister Edgerton sent me a facebook message, thanking me for that picture frame I made for him. Ha ha, made me really happy about that. Until I scanned the message and saw where he said that my writing has improved throughout the period when he taught me. He said he knows I'll continue to improve next year and told me good luck.
Those words made me go :(
No one has ever really encouraged me so much about my writing than Mister Edgerton.
My classmates all just tease and make fun of me, about how I do great for an essay/composition. They just say, "It's xueting, what do you expect??", or "What? Her again??", or saying on Facebook that I'd publish an amazing essay when asked what I'd do with a million dollars (Wei yuan), and that isn't complimenting. It sounds as though they're saying it... sarcastically. What, is it so bad to have a love for writing and literature?
Today when Mister Chen announced that literature is dropped, jiaxin, vyshnavi, shirley, vanessa, chingwen, calvin and jia wei all went throwing looks in my direction. Calvin said, "Xueting, don't be sad already!" and Jia Wei was laughing (LAUGHING, can you believe it?!) and said, "Xueting, you crying, huh?"
It was so hard trying to contain all that anger, frustration and sadness altogether so that they won't see and make fun of it.
Okay I know I'm sticking to this stupid subject for so long... sorry.
Still repeating The Fray songs all the way. They're making this so much better for me, I LOVE THE BOYS.
Hoping that this won't be as bad as I think it will be :/