my heart? you'll see it broken in two on the sidewalk
i decided to keep this livejournal.
god damnit, everyone was right. i feel so used, and im broken, and my heart is slowing breaking. all i wanted was a good person in my life. he was wise about things i wasn't. i thought we would be happy together. but it was all really just a joke and i was used and fucking played. you wanna go have fun with the people that DONT LIKE YOU, YOU DONT LIKE THEM, YOU SAID YOU WENT THERE FOR ME, AND ALL THAT WAS JUST A LIE I GUESS HUH? im so angry right now. you dont deserve me. everyone said i could have gotten better. BUT I DIDNT WANT BETTER. i wanted the 26 year old with a kid, that was in the middle of a divorce, a happy guy at one point, and wnated to help him through and be there for him and it didnt go the way we planned. i rememebr when i first met you. you were great. you were perfect, actually. i was scared, and nervous, and it took us months to finally talk. months to finally touch lips. dammit, why did you have to turn out to be the guy everyone said you would be? i gave you third, FOURTH fucking chances and you blew all of them.
i just wanted you to want me. and i know you did. you told me.
but you fucking broke me. why did you have to turn out like this? why couldnt you keep your word?