19 More days Until Valentine
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i dont know i have a feeling that i am taking this valentine shit very seriously this year i dont know why, maybe cause i thought i was going to finally have one . I love him so much you all i miss him but kevo is right if he knows that i still like him he is going to think im crazy.. yeah well i am crazy i miss him i miss being with him i miss talking to him knowing his stupid little conversations on game boys and dumb ass movies scketches *sighs. Yesterday while i was checking my mail all his old e-mails from this summer popped out of no where for example...
hey belki its me adam! im in france now and i already miss you alot! i had trouble sleeping on the plane but thinking about you helped. so im gonna send you an email everyday to tell you about what i did that day. so anyway i hope you get this. just to let you know there is a 7 hour time difference. like if it was 12 00 where you are it would be 7 00pm over here.
i luv u
dude after i read that i busted in tears man i couldnt take it i couldnt and i hate crying especially cause whats done its done and i cant get adam back for shit and im just another ass anyway and my tears wont bring him back nothing will cause he never loved me no one ever loves the belk-mister ....
I JUST WANT HIM BACK but thats not going to happen so let me die no one is going to save me no one is let me drown in my own ocean of dwell until i find that special someone...