Looking Back
’ve been a bit nostalgic lately, you know... just looking back at some of my old journals and thinking I need to start writing and posting some new entries so here’s a bit of what I’ve written in the past... mostly the past month or so. I guess writing about life on here and not on FB makes it possible for me to really express more of what I’m up to and what I’m feeling... at least that’s what I hope.
"And that my friends is the end of my story... except for the parts that I left out of course:)(8-12-06)."
4-9-2014- Just Thinking
Tonight it is supposed to get down to 60! I don’t like thinking about being cold or chilly but its alright at night when you can crawl under your covers. On Monday when I was doing dishes at 8:00 the radio said it was still 85. It felt like 90 in the kitchen and so I enjoyed some ice cold water and 2 slices of cold water melon and then of course I decided I might as well take another shower. In MI on the other hand I imagine everyone’s still wearing long pants, shirts, sox, shoes, and maybe even jackets, brrrr! Sody said some of the family went to FL, to join “AB” and Doc, and that she wished she could have been there with them all too. It sounds like she’s been going through a lot lately. Jason almost caught their house on fire last week and Sody says if she would have come home a half hour later the house would probably have burnt to the ground. I guess he apparently left a lit candle on their flat stove and forgot about it. She was NOT happy! When she walked in the kitchen was full of smoke and she could hardly see a thing... But she still went ahead and moved the stove away from the wall to unplug it. She did all that despite the fact that some of the stove had already melted. I’m not sure I would have done that I told her. I would probably have freaked out, gone out and called the fire department. Maybe I would have opened all the windows and used the fire extinguisher, but to unplug the stove... I would have been to afraid of something horrible like an exploding fire or something. Any way, I guess their insurance is payiing to fix the damage to their house. All their clothes and everything got smoked, a lot of their kitchen stuff got damaged, and I don’t know what kind of mess the fire department might have made with all the water but they have been staying at a hotel... for 2 weeks Sody said. They get nice breakfasts and supper from Mon- Thurs. It would be nice Sody said, if it weren’t for having to get up every day to go to work... if it were a vacation. She is so ready for a vacation that the crazy girl is actually considering going to FL on the 25th or something. But she wants to be home by the 30th I think she said so I guess she’ll be driving back with “AB” and Doc... So basically she is paying to fly out, to drive back to MI? It doesn’t seem worth it or make too much sense but I guess she kind of sounds desperate to get away? I’m thinking it sounds a lot like the honey-Moon stage with her and Jason is sort of wearing out. I don’t know exactly what’s going on with her but I can only begin to guess. It makes me worry and wonder... but there’s nothing I can actually do.
Looking back on all these journals I feel like I’ve changed the least out of anyone in all these years. It isn’t that I haven’t gone through plenty of things and gained a lot of knowlege and experience... its just that somehow I feel like I’m an old book that has been left on a shelf to gather dust... and maybe eventually someone will remember to dust me off and read me. I know that’s a funny way to think of myself. And sometimes I wish things could be different for me and I didn’t have to be my same old, same old unchanging self. Other times when I see how things are for other people who just choose things on a whim, without giving much thoughts to things... I am glad I am me. I’m mostly carefree, still somewhat youthful, calm, cool, collected, curious, intrigued by life and what it could be for me in the future. I keep learning more about myself and the things that matter most to me in life. And I actually have time to smell the roses and appreciate life in a way many people will never get the chance to do so. I live a mostly quiet life, where I can choose what I want or don’t want to invade my thoughts. Sometimes there are things in the world that are quite upsetting... so it isn’t that I avoid reality. Its just that I can look at things from a perspective in which I can reflect on things and then let them go in a healthy way.
I should go to bed now. I meant to read some more of John Grisham’s “The Brethren” tonight. And also read one more chapter of the Jahova book Shani gave me. I’m glad she hasn’t popped up to ask me how far I’ve gotten. Its on my To Do List for this month but it looks like I’m going to have to make some other things a priority. Tomorrow I want to do laundry since its been a while since I’ve been able to do so due to the lack of water these days. Man, I have a feeling this month is going to go by fast! I’m not sure I really want it to rush on by. There is so much I have on my mind that I can’t even begin to sort out.
Current Mood: Chilly
4-14-2014- Finally I Know
Ma went to a Pass Over Service tonight and she says she finally knows what happened to Tio Pancho and his family. The 4 of them got in a car accident the morning of Papa Emilio’s funeral but no one had really heard much news afterwards. Tonight she came across a relative of hers who apparently lives near them and she says Tio Pancho got thrown from the car but was ok, his wife broke 2 ribs or so. The boy seemed ok but his daughter who appeared to have broken maybe both legs actually had to go into surgery on her legs and she had ruptured her bladder or something so she had to have 2 surgeries or something. Any way, the news wasn’t so good and all this time Tio Pancho’s been wondering why no one in his family ever got ahold of him but of course no one seemed to have his number. But Mom was able to get 2 phone numbers. Its good that she knows now... She is hoping to talk to some of her sisters and maybe taking a trip to see the family sometime soon. Mom isn’t one for trips so it’s a little surprising but I guess its something she feels they aught to do maybe a month from now so they have time to plan it. The thing though is I think she’s forgotten Mornie will have her baby around that time and that’s when she plans to come here for Mom to take care of her. But Mornie isn’t a baby so I think if Mom went for a day or so it wouldn’t be soo horrible. I said they needed to plan the trip and then finally tell poor Grandma what was going on since she never even knows that any sort of accident happened. Who knows what’s been going through Grandma’s head about why Tio Pancho didn’t come for any of the things for Papa Emilio when he died. Ma says if she heard anything now she would just worry and want to go off to see the family right away and that wouldn’t be so good. Grandma is better at traveling and getting on than Mom is so I think it would be fine for her to know now but I guess if they plan a trip they could all just go at the same time too.
I’ve been trying to read my John Grisham book at night but I get so sleepy after a while of reading. Its been one of the hardest books by him for me to get into it seems. So when Elisa showed up today after her dentist I had to tell her I wasn’t done. Today was a strange day for her to come, but it was good to see her if only for a little while. The kids are in Melchor with their relatives so her and Tono will go pick them up Thursday so they may pass by then... so I hope to get my self on track and since I only have like 30 pages or so left I should have it done by then. Lately it seems I’m easily distracted however, the heat is partly to blame for me getting off track and me veering away from my weekly To Do List I would say. Funny thing is I saw a snow storm forecast for some parts of the U.S. Brrr... I don’t like the thought of being chilly... but the heat here has been quite unbearable here that maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to chill out for a little while. Tonight there’s supposed to be a Lunar Eclipse and the moon is supposed to be blood red. I saw the moon a little while ago but I’m not sure if I want to wait till midnight to see what exactly all the hype is all about. Maybe if Kali wasn’t passed out sleeping on a mattress by the front door I would go out and see but of course he doesn’t have an actual room at the moment.
The house is coming along alright. We’ve spent several Sundays chilling outside as they work on the house and spray poison. Yesterday everyone enjoyed Cow Foot Soup. I of course had the BBQ dad brought from the wedding the night before... it tasted nice with cold Mango juice. I tried to read under the picnic/ camp like area we usually set up outside... but of course after my Bible Study in the morning there were just too many distractions. After Agnes, Cut and Ohani showed up, Jeanette, Osiris, Osanjay, and baby Jayzian came. Junior brought Mornie a little before lunch but since he is so uncomfortable around everyone he made his excape and left until he came to pick her up at almost 5pm. Josh and Myrna showed up at some point too. We ate water melon, the kids played in their kiddie pool, we took turns holding and making faces at the baby, catching up on gossip, and making fun of the party accross the street. Uri invited Sara to decorate for it, and Agnes and Jeanette actually got invitations as soon as they were spotted but we were all wondering what the deal with throwing yourself a babyshower after the baby was born would be like. We agreed that some people are silly and want any excuse to have a party. And for it being a baby shower the music was certainly not for a baby! Any way, spending the day outside with a bunch of people is always so nice... and we all seemed to agree that us just hanging out and enjoying ourselves was better than any kind of party that might have been going on around us. Easter Break is coming up and Cut and Agnes plan on going to Flores over some of this weekend, so I’m not sure when they’ll be working on the house again. Maybe Monday? What they call Holy Monday here, and which just happens to be another Holiday. I’m not really looking forward to the house being different from what it used to be, mostly because I think it will be too dark and much hotter in here... but no one seems to care what I think so whatever. Any way, even if I don’t like the changes its already on its way to being different and there’s no turning back. I really don’t want to imagine how dark it will be once everything is as it should be. I already have a hard time seeing and finding good places to read and write during the day... and now its going to be much harder! Bahumbug! Mornie is expecting that there will be a room ready for her by the time she’s ready for her repose after she has her baby... but she could go into delivery any day now and of course the house is practically upside down with chairs, tables, and beds just hanging about... and Mom moving things from one place to the next as they go from one project to the next. Oh well, it isn’t like Mornie can’t stay in Cayo after she has the baby. She just doesn’t want to. But I guess only time will tell what will be going on during that time.
I am hoping the Full Moon tomorrow will bring about little piggy’s. I want to take pics and maybe see the Sow have them. I probably won’t be so lucky. My guess is it will happen this weekend while Agnes is in Flores with the camara I’m letting her borrow... but once again I guess we shall see.
Current Mood: Sore
4-16-2014- MOONSTRUCK
I should be in bed. Tomorrow Ma and I are going to go see Grandma. I probably won't want to get up when my alarm clock goes off... but its always so hard to go to bed. This month is going by so fast! I hear there is more snow in the forecast for MI. Easter is almost here and this week has zoomed by ultra fast. I really am feeling like I'm not trying hard enough to catch up on things but it seems there is always something going on. Dad's Sow had 10 pigs today, 1 died though. I want to go see the piglets soon. I bet they are so cute. Last night was a full moon so we expected they'd probably be here soon... just as we expect Mornie will probably have her baby next month around the full moon. Jeanette had Jayzian in December the dawn after the full moon. The night before last nights full moon there was a lunar eclypse but since I didn't stay up till midnight I didn't see what all the hype was about live. Elisa came Monday after her dentist appointment, it was good to see her if only for a little while. She is supposed to stop by on her way back from picking the kids up from Melchor tomorrow. Monday Ma and I also went to the Chinese to get groceries and since we weren't able to get everything she needed we went back yesterday afternoon. Today I'm not sure how the day went by so fast but I'm tired any way. All I know is that I got up later and just made it in time to workout from 8-10am. The Brazilian Novela was on so I watched that till 12:00pm and did some Bible reading during the commercials. Then there was lunch, news time and doing tomorrow's Bible reading since we'll be gone tomorrow. Then I took a shower and boom 3pm was here! So strange how every now and then I have a day like that where I just don't know where the time went. Hmm... I hope to be more productive tomorrow and this weekend. I definetly have somethings I want to get done soon!
Current Mood: Tired
"And that my friends is the end of my story... except for the parts that I left out of course:)(8-12-06)."
4-9-2014- Just Thinking
Tonight it is supposed to get down to 60! I don’t like thinking about being cold or chilly but its alright at night when you can crawl under your covers. On Monday when I was doing dishes at 8:00 the radio said it was still 85. It felt like 90 in the kitchen and so I enjoyed some ice cold water and 2 slices of cold water melon and then of course I decided I might as well take another shower. In MI on the other hand I imagine everyone’s still wearing long pants, shirts, sox, shoes, and maybe even jackets, brrrr! Sody said some of the family went to FL, to join “AB” and Doc, and that she wished she could have been there with them all too. It sounds like she’s been going through a lot lately. Jason almost caught their house on fire last week and Sody says if she would have come home a half hour later the house would probably have burnt to the ground. I guess he apparently left a lit candle on their flat stove and forgot about it. She was NOT happy! When she walked in the kitchen was full of smoke and she could hardly see a thing... But she still went ahead and moved the stove away from the wall to unplug it. She did all that despite the fact that some of the stove had already melted. I’m not sure I would have done that I told her. I would probably have freaked out, gone out and called the fire department. Maybe I would have opened all the windows and used the fire extinguisher, but to unplug the stove... I would have been to afraid of something horrible like an exploding fire or something. Any way, I guess their insurance is payiing to fix the damage to their house. All their clothes and everything got smoked, a lot of their kitchen stuff got damaged, and I don’t know what kind of mess the fire department might have made with all the water but they have been staying at a hotel... for 2 weeks Sody said. They get nice breakfasts and supper from Mon- Thurs. It would be nice Sody said, if it weren’t for having to get up every day to go to work... if it were a vacation. She is so ready for a vacation that the crazy girl is actually considering going to FL on the 25th or something. But she wants to be home by the 30th I think she said so I guess she’ll be driving back with “AB” and Doc... So basically she is paying to fly out, to drive back to MI? It doesn’t seem worth it or make too much sense but I guess she kind of sounds desperate to get away? I’m thinking it sounds a lot like the honey-Moon stage with her and Jason is sort of wearing out. I don’t know exactly what’s going on with her but I can only begin to guess. It makes me worry and wonder... but there’s nothing I can actually do.
Looking back on all these journals I feel like I’ve changed the least out of anyone in all these years. It isn’t that I haven’t gone through plenty of things and gained a lot of knowlege and experience... its just that somehow I feel like I’m an old book that has been left on a shelf to gather dust... and maybe eventually someone will remember to dust me off and read me. I know that’s a funny way to think of myself. And sometimes I wish things could be different for me and I didn’t have to be my same old, same old unchanging self. Other times when I see how things are for other people who just choose things on a whim, without giving much thoughts to things... I am glad I am me. I’m mostly carefree, still somewhat youthful, calm, cool, collected, curious, intrigued by life and what it could be for me in the future. I keep learning more about myself and the things that matter most to me in life. And I actually have time to smell the roses and appreciate life in a way many people will never get the chance to do so. I live a mostly quiet life, where I can choose what I want or don’t want to invade my thoughts. Sometimes there are things in the world that are quite upsetting... so it isn’t that I avoid reality. Its just that I can look at things from a perspective in which I can reflect on things and then let them go in a healthy way.
I should go to bed now. I meant to read some more of John Grisham’s “The Brethren” tonight. And also read one more chapter of the Jahova book Shani gave me. I’m glad she hasn’t popped up to ask me how far I’ve gotten. Its on my To Do List for this month but it looks like I’m going to have to make some other things a priority. Tomorrow I want to do laundry since its been a while since I’ve been able to do so due to the lack of water these days. Man, I have a feeling this month is going to go by fast! I’m not sure I really want it to rush on by. There is so much I have on my mind that I can’t even begin to sort out.
Current Mood: Chilly
4-14-2014- Finally I Know
Ma went to a Pass Over Service tonight and she says she finally knows what happened to Tio Pancho and his family. The 4 of them got in a car accident the morning of Papa Emilio’s funeral but no one had really heard much news afterwards. Tonight she came across a relative of hers who apparently lives near them and she says Tio Pancho got thrown from the car but was ok, his wife broke 2 ribs or so. The boy seemed ok but his daughter who appeared to have broken maybe both legs actually had to go into surgery on her legs and she had ruptured her bladder or something so she had to have 2 surgeries or something. Any way, the news wasn’t so good and all this time Tio Pancho’s been wondering why no one in his family ever got ahold of him but of course no one seemed to have his number. But Mom was able to get 2 phone numbers. Its good that she knows now... She is hoping to talk to some of her sisters and maybe taking a trip to see the family sometime soon. Mom isn’t one for trips so it’s a little surprising but I guess its something she feels they aught to do maybe a month from now so they have time to plan it. The thing though is I think she’s forgotten Mornie will have her baby around that time and that’s when she plans to come here for Mom to take care of her. But Mornie isn’t a baby so I think if Mom went for a day or so it wouldn’t be soo horrible. I said they needed to plan the trip and then finally tell poor Grandma what was going on since she never even knows that any sort of accident happened. Who knows what’s been going through Grandma’s head about why Tio Pancho didn’t come for any of the things for Papa Emilio when he died. Ma says if she heard anything now she would just worry and want to go off to see the family right away and that wouldn’t be so good. Grandma is better at traveling and getting on than Mom is so I think it would be fine for her to know now but I guess if they plan a trip they could all just go at the same time too.
I’ve been trying to read my John Grisham book at night but I get so sleepy after a while of reading. Its been one of the hardest books by him for me to get into it seems. So when Elisa showed up today after her dentist I had to tell her I wasn’t done. Today was a strange day for her to come, but it was good to see her if only for a little while. The kids are in Melchor with their relatives so her and Tono will go pick them up Thursday so they may pass by then... so I hope to get my self on track and since I only have like 30 pages or so left I should have it done by then. Lately it seems I’m easily distracted however, the heat is partly to blame for me getting off track and me veering away from my weekly To Do List I would say. Funny thing is I saw a snow storm forecast for some parts of the U.S. Brrr... I don’t like the thought of being chilly... but the heat here has been quite unbearable here that maybe it wouldn’t be so bad to chill out for a little while. Tonight there’s supposed to be a Lunar Eclipse and the moon is supposed to be blood red. I saw the moon a little while ago but I’m not sure if I want to wait till midnight to see what exactly all the hype is all about. Maybe if Kali wasn’t passed out sleeping on a mattress by the front door I would go out and see but of course he doesn’t have an actual room at the moment.
The house is coming along alright. We’ve spent several Sundays chilling outside as they work on the house and spray poison. Yesterday everyone enjoyed Cow Foot Soup. I of course had the BBQ dad brought from the wedding the night before... it tasted nice with cold Mango juice. I tried to read under the picnic/ camp like area we usually set up outside... but of course after my Bible Study in the morning there were just too many distractions. After Agnes, Cut and Ohani showed up, Jeanette, Osiris, Osanjay, and baby Jayzian came. Junior brought Mornie a little before lunch but since he is so uncomfortable around everyone he made his excape and left until he came to pick her up at almost 5pm. Josh and Myrna showed up at some point too. We ate water melon, the kids played in their kiddie pool, we took turns holding and making faces at the baby, catching up on gossip, and making fun of the party accross the street. Uri invited Sara to decorate for it, and Agnes and Jeanette actually got invitations as soon as they were spotted but we were all wondering what the deal with throwing yourself a babyshower after the baby was born would be like. We agreed that some people are silly and want any excuse to have a party. And for it being a baby shower the music was certainly not for a baby! Any way, spending the day outside with a bunch of people is always so nice... and we all seemed to agree that us just hanging out and enjoying ourselves was better than any kind of party that might have been going on around us. Easter Break is coming up and Cut and Agnes plan on going to Flores over some of this weekend, so I’m not sure when they’ll be working on the house again. Maybe Monday? What they call Holy Monday here, and which just happens to be another Holiday. I’m not really looking forward to the house being different from what it used to be, mostly because I think it will be too dark and much hotter in here... but no one seems to care what I think so whatever. Any way, even if I don’t like the changes its already on its way to being different and there’s no turning back. I really don’t want to imagine how dark it will be once everything is as it should be. I already have a hard time seeing and finding good places to read and write during the day... and now its going to be much harder! Bahumbug! Mornie is expecting that there will be a room ready for her by the time she’s ready for her repose after she has her baby... but she could go into delivery any day now and of course the house is practically upside down with chairs, tables, and beds just hanging about... and Mom moving things from one place to the next as they go from one project to the next. Oh well, it isn’t like Mornie can’t stay in Cayo after she has the baby. She just doesn’t want to. But I guess only time will tell what will be going on during that time.
I am hoping the Full Moon tomorrow will bring about little piggy’s. I want to take pics and maybe see the Sow have them. I probably won’t be so lucky. My guess is it will happen this weekend while Agnes is in Flores with the camara I’m letting her borrow... but once again I guess we shall see.
Current Mood: Sore
4-16-2014- MOONSTRUCK
I should be in bed. Tomorrow Ma and I are going to go see Grandma. I probably won't want to get up when my alarm clock goes off... but its always so hard to go to bed. This month is going by so fast! I hear there is more snow in the forecast for MI. Easter is almost here and this week has zoomed by ultra fast. I really am feeling like I'm not trying hard enough to catch up on things but it seems there is always something going on. Dad's Sow had 10 pigs today, 1 died though. I want to go see the piglets soon. I bet they are so cute. Last night was a full moon so we expected they'd probably be here soon... just as we expect Mornie will probably have her baby next month around the full moon. Jeanette had Jayzian in December the dawn after the full moon. The night before last nights full moon there was a lunar eclypse but since I didn't stay up till midnight I didn't see what all the hype was about live. Elisa came Monday after her dentist appointment, it was good to see her if only for a little while. She is supposed to stop by on her way back from picking the kids up from Melchor tomorrow. Monday Ma and I also went to the Chinese to get groceries and since we weren't able to get everything she needed we went back yesterday afternoon. Today I'm not sure how the day went by so fast but I'm tired any way. All I know is that I got up later and just made it in time to workout from 8-10am. The Brazilian Novela was on so I watched that till 12:00pm and did some Bible reading during the commercials. Then there was lunch, news time and doing tomorrow's Bible reading since we'll be gone tomorrow. Then I took a shower and boom 3pm was here! So strange how every now and then I have a day like that where I just don't know where the time went. Hmm... I hope to be more productive tomorrow and this weekend. I definetly have somethings I want to get done soon!
Current Mood: Tired