[Misc] The End of 2005
So we're less than twelve hours away from 2006 but frankly I could care less. 2005 turned out to be a shit year and right now 2006 is not shaping up to be any better. I am still out of work and half-way through my unemployment benefits with no new job in site in spite of numerous applications. Each day without any word on a new job brings me one day closer to having to move back in with my mom which is a fate worse than death as far as I am concerned because I literally will just become a hermit there. I won't go out or anything like that. In fact, I probably would not even come out of my room except to go to the bathroom or the kitchen.
Even though it has now been four months since I lost my job I still feel incredible amounts of resentment towards my former boss because I recently found out he lied to me in my exit interview and such as he claimed the decision to fire me was over his head but my employee file revealed he was the one who recommended I get fired in the first place.
It also has me feeling more and more depressed as time goes on. I barely come out of my bedroom here at home. I remember when I used to watch TV in the living room exclusively and such but now I just stay in bed under my blankets. I would also sometimes relax in the chaise and read/write on my laptop but now I just stay in bed with that too. There is not joy in my life right now because I am constantly worried about what is going to happen tomorrow. I cannot do the things I want like just pack up a few things and head to Toronto or Chicago.
I hate this.
Even though it has now been four months since I lost my job I still feel incredible amounts of resentment towards my former boss because I recently found out he lied to me in my exit interview and such as he claimed the decision to fire me was over his head but my employee file revealed he was the one who recommended I get fired in the first place.
It also has me feeling more and more depressed as time goes on. I barely come out of my bedroom here at home. I remember when I used to watch TV in the living room exclusively and such but now I just stay in bed under my blankets. I would also sometimes relax in the chaise and read/write on my laptop but now I just stay in bed with that too. There is not joy in my life right now because I am constantly worried about what is going to happen tomorrow. I cannot do the things I want like just pack up a few things and head to Toronto or Chicago.
I hate this.