I still believe
I still believe that I will be strong enough to survive college. Everything will be okay and I will thank myself the fact that I didn't give up.
But at the same time...
WHAT THE HELL was I thinking when I chose medicine?! That choice was a suicide and people don't even get it!
I'm so sick and tired of that place. You have NO idea! I'm sick and tired of those classes that are nothing more than a waste of time, I'm sick and tired of those teachers, who have this special pleasure in ruining two weeks of hard study for their own joy, I'm sick and tired of those exams because I know things but I can't answer those questions, I'm sick and tired of people around me, who don't get that I'm tired, that I'm NOT complaining because I'm lazy, that I'm NOT complaining for nothing!
Now I get what that other guy said on tv: when people commit something stupid, they always give others signs... the others are the ones who aren't interested enough to notice them.
I can't wait for this week to be over. Maybe I'll feel a little better by then.
Glad to talk to you again. Kisses!
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