old old prayer
Please let me be more truthful than I ever have been. Let me be bold and learn to share what needs to be heard. Touch me so that I may help others to evolve from what I am now.
Help me to glow from the insides, with whatever that's beautiful that I have left in me. Get me to where I want to be, and help me to be careful not to step on anyone. Clear my mind, clean my soul, help me to get rid of every emotional toxin I've ever harbored my whole life.
You can help me. Help me let go of expired truths, stagnant sentiments, ridiculous motives. I need to realize what my whole being actually wants.
I'm never at peace. I'm not selling enough at work, I'm not responsible enough in the world, I'm never kind enough at home, I'm not disciplined enough in getting the things I want. I can never get to sleep... I can never wake up on time. I can never find someone to love me, I can never find someone I love. I can't cowboy up... I can't get hurt. I can't open up, I can't express. I sit stony faced while my friends are in the depths, mourning over dead relationships. I can't ever possibly know what they're talking about. Nothing is right. Nothing.
I'm getting uncomfortable in my comfort-zone. My chest is always tight, my mind is always racing and for reasons supernatural, I turn to sin to clear my mind. I foul everything else in the process.
My mind has become a wicked thing. I can't take it anymore. For some reason, my heart has shrunken and my soul is emptier than a gymnasium in the summer... it echoes and eventually kills with neglect whatever I allow in. My mind has become wicked and I don't know how to cut it off.
Help me to start over again. Help me become ready, and I'll take the big step.
Thank you. For every joy in my life. For everything.
Amen.
Help me to glow from the insides, with whatever that's beautiful that I have left in me. Get me to where I want to be, and help me to be careful not to step on anyone. Clear my mind, clean my soul, help me to get rid of every emotional toxin I've ever harbored my whole life.
You can help me. Help me let go of expired truths, stagnant sentiments, ridiculous motives. I need to realize what my whole being actually wants.
I'm never at peace. I'm not selling enough at work, I'm not responsible enough in the world, I'm never kind enough at home, I'm not disciplined enough in getting the things I want. I can never get to sleep... I can never wake up on time. I can never find someone to love me, I can never find someone I love. I can't cowboy up... I can't get hurt. I can't open up, I can't express. I sit stony faced while my friends are in the depths, mourning over dead relationships. I can't ever possibly know what they're talking about. Nothing is right. Nothing.
I'm getting uncomfortable in my comfort-zone. My chest is always tight, my mind is always racing and for reasons supernatural, I turn to sin to clear my mind. I foul everything else in the process.
My mind has become a wicked thing. I can't take it anymore. For some reason, my heart has shrunken and my soul is emptier than a gymnasium in the summer... it echoes and eventually kills with neglect whatever I allow in. My mind has become wicked and I don't know how to cut it off.
Help me to start over again. Help me become ready, and I'll take the big step.
Thank you. For every joy in my life. For everything.
Amen.