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[belindagurl]

Sorry i had to write this in a seperate entry from gabri's birthday entry bc that one is happy and this one...well...isnt. Dont think the two are related, bc i was happy for gabri's birthday, but this feeling is later.

Ok so i had a lot of time for thinking during the long commute from the globetrotters (amazing, by the way) so i thought of this poem that will help me vent some anger i have had pent up for a very, very long time. The rhymes are very third grade and it gets graphic, but i really could care less.

here goes..

I hate all those fucking guys
their fucking bullshit
and fucking lies

they tell you you're pretty and stunning and hot
they tell you you're special,
when really, you're not

They gaze into your eyes
they play with your curls
when really they're screwing like 5 other girls

they kiss and then leave
or kiss and then tell
why can't these motherfuckers
all just go to hell

you fall for every word they say
while they use you
'cause they just want play

Then you feel
worthless
pathetic and
dumb
while they have a big laugh--
to them it was fun

then they move on
to ruin more lives
to cause more pain
and make more cry

They call you and angel
they tell you you're perfect
THEY NEVER FUCKING MEAN IT
ITS ALL JUST BULLSHIT

This next message is directed
to one certain guy
and just so you know
i hope you fucking DIE

I hope you never get love
or happiness
from life
and if you try this again
i will take out a knife
i will start with your eyes
and your tongue further south
so you'll never again put it in another girl's mouth

I'll then use a dull blade
to cut off your penis
so you'll feel the pain i've felt
to make sure that you'll feel this

you waste of life
you peice of shit
you've ruined my life
and you're happy about it

After all these injuries
bruises
black and blue
you'll never know the torture
that you've put me through

Here's to new beginnings
there you have it, my anger is out. What a relief, i really feel much better. Please comment, it really means a lot.