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What can you say when the world around you seems to be dying? I can't help it. Nothing is under my control anymore. Everything that I once had has slipped away. Sure, it's all still physically here, but emotionally it's dead. There's nothing to it. No motivation is coming from anyone else. I go to school, I run, I come home. I am starting to feel more alive than ever before, while I watch the world around me turn brown, black, then grey, and shrivel into nothingness. Perhaps it is the contrast? I just don't know what to do anymore. Ironic, isn't it? I'm at a point in my life where I want every door to open up but I feel the doors closing in my face. Frustration is the defining word of my mood recently. The world I've grown up in is to small, but I can't seem to find the path way to the next one, the one that is made for adult sized me.