Perfect only in her imperfections
Pony was a bit of a prick today, but I kinda like when he gets cocky and tries to boss me around. Shows how much more confidence under saddle he has. I still haven't figured out why I have to kick the lazy arse around outside but inside, I'm doing half halts and transition after transition to keep him on my aids. Really confuzzled about that one. God speed, Caitlin. He's a terrorist indoors. Do feel free to lunge him for nine hours before you sit on him. He's so fat too heehee I like me ponies chubby. If the bugs weren't such a problem, I'd do hillwork with him. I'm switching him to a single joint snaffle and seeing if that helps too.
My problem is is that I read or see other fantasy novels and I go, "Well shit, my stuff's already been done before." But then I remind myself that it hasn't. Or I try to remind myself. Themes and plots get repeated over and over, but no one else has a Zair or an Emily or an Analei or a Falcon (oh my Falcon...my goal in life is to find me a Falcon). Sure, my stuff isn't publishable. But dammit if it isn't fun to write.
Killed all the ants, I think. Thank you, Raid.
And, that's all. I'm slowly becoming more sure about who I'm okay with leaving behind in friendships, and who I'm not. And the friendships I reconsidered in Nicaragua have been rebalanced, in my head at least, which helps a lot.
I cried for the first time since Nicaragua today...we put our cat down. She was 13, we've had her for 11 years (just about to the day, ironically). Kidney infection, kidney failure and cancer and she gave up. When cats decide its time to go, they really do let go. So she's gone. I'll miss her. I'm not as much of a cat person, but she was one tough bitch. So ends an era of our pets from Ocean City Humane Society. Nicky, Mae and Molly (shelter names Nicky, Lacey and Windy respectively). Now there's just Chance. I have no doubt my parents will get a new cat soon...I hope they get an adult simply because so many adult cats need homes but probably not until the end of the summer. We hate bringing cats up to the ADK after Jackson was hit.
That being all, I felt like I should update. We (JC and I) just watched Eragon. Twas better than the book haha which I consider glorified fanfiction.
Caitlin got Caesura. Hopefully she likes it though I still like Twelve better. I have my 3 betas for Heir (Liz, Atma and Cat) so I'm sending stuff this summer to those three lovely gals. If I can edit it to near perfection with input from those three, then I will probably begin the search for an agent. I've been reading up on it. I probably won't get one but I'd rather take the plunge and do it. Thus, no one else will read Heir except those three for the possibility that its picked up. And for those who already got portions of it, I know you didn't read it so I don't really care. There were three of you. The story's changed from whatever you read, if you read anything I sent you, so whatever. No bitterness, just honesty. Heir's fun.
I'm writing the epilogue tonight. No, it's not complete. But for those of you who read the others, I've almost always written the epilogue before the final chapter is even close to being written.
Because she's just the way she is, but no one's ever told that's okay
My problem is is that I read or see other fantasy novels and I go, "Well shit, my stuff's already been done before." But then I remind myself that it hasn't. Or I try to remind myself. Themes and plots get repeated over and over, but no one else has a Zair or an Emily or an Analei or a Falcon (oh my Falcon...my goal in life is to find me a Falcon). Sure, my stuff isn't publishable. But dammit if it isn't fun to write.
Killed all the ants, I think. Thank you, Raid.
And, that's all. I'm slowly becoming more sure about who I'm okay with leaving behind in friendships, and who I'm not. And the friendships I reconsidered in Nicaragua have been rebalanced, in my head at least, which helps a lot.
I cried for the first time since Nicaragua today...we put our cat down. She was 13, we've had her for 11 years (just about to the day, ironically). Kidney infection, kidney failure and cancer and she gave up. When cats decide its time to go, they really do let go. So she's gone. I'll miss her. I'm not as much of a cat person, but she was one tough bitch. So ends an era of our pets from Ocean City Humane Society. Nicky, Mae and Molly (shelter names Nicky, Lacey and Windy respectively). Now there's just Chance. I have no doubt my parents will get a new cat soon...I hope they get an adult simply because so many adult cats need homes but probably not until the end of the summer. We hate bringing cats up to the ADK after Jackson was hit.
That being all, I felt like I should update. We (JC and I) just watched Eragon. Twas better than the book haha which I consider glorified fanfiction.
Caitlin got Caesura. Hopefully she likes it though I still like Twelve better. I have my 3 betas for Heir (Liz, Atma and Cat) so I'm sending stuff this summer to those three lovely gals. If I can edit it to near perfection with input from those three, then I will probably begin the search for an agent. I've been reading up on it. I probably won't get one but I'd rather take the plunge and do it. Thus, no one else will read Heir except those three for the possibility that its picked up. And for those who already got portions of it, I know you didn't read it so I don't really care. There were three of you. The story's changed from whatever you read, if you read anything I sent you, so whatever. No bitterness, just honesty. Heir's fun.
I'm writing the epilogue tonight. No, it's not complete. But for those of you who read the others, I've almost always written the epilogue before the final chapter is even close to being written.
Because she's just the way she is, but no one's ever told that's okay