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I'm gonna quit soccer. Actually not quit, but I am this close -> . .(distance between the two points) to not playing next year. That was total bs. Grr that was so stupid. K I'm the hardest worker on that, whether there is a reward or not. I only missed one practice and techniqually it was only half. I've gone to every game and played in it. I started the season on time. I have been here all year. I've worked my butt off and given just about everything. "I see a lot of you in me" well I wonder why that is. Wait, my pissy attitude.... well duh. I still a crazy kid who happens to be a girl who happens to have extremely strange and major mood swings AT any given time. And you wonder why I seem to not like the game at times. I love soccer more than a lot of things. It's been my life since I was a little tiny kid. Now I wish I hated it with everything in me. It make it so easy to say hey I don't like soccer. I'm not playing next year, but I can't. I'm like the guy in Friday Night Lights (read the book, it's really good, just crude). He wants to hate it, yet it's him it gives him life. Only 4 days (less) til I am gone from this state!! I won't be able to play in the last game verus Selah. Oh pity. They can deal. See how well they can do without me. They've done it before. STUPID C... Nevermind. Gosh darn it. Where did I go wrong being a good person. I gave my life to something I loved. It's almost killed or really hurt me many times. Yet I still love it. What is up with that?? When I get back there will be LESS THAN 2 MONTHS UNTIL MY BIRTHDAY.... PARTY!! I can't wait. I'll be able to drive, get away, and be able to control when I get back, er for the most part I guess. But I won't have to depend on everyone who drive to take me to where I need to be. Screw him!!