updates
Put in for the lead cook again, hoping it goes better than the last time I tried. Every time It comes around, I seem to put in triple the work of the people around me, including the current lead cook, and show competencies she can't even imagine, and some how they hire someone else. I think If this doesn't go through, It's time to move to greener pastures, whether I finally start paying the money to officially get into I.T. or just put in for a salaried management position, I know I can do it, I have before, on both fronts. The question is whether I should throw away 4 years of college, or work at something I know is going to keep hurting my body as bad, and probably start wrecking my sanity too. I love cooking, and I love the field(those of you in the field know there's a difference), but every day seems to prove harder to move as fast as the previous, and every day seems to injure me more, whether it be burns, cuts(never knives either...), impact on my feet, ankles, knees, hips, and back, or my shoulders or wrists due to repetitive motions required.
On a different note, I am trying to figure out a way to get my exercise in without causing more stress in the above areas. I have narrowed it down to calisthenics(which I desperately need, no matter the damage to my body, my lungs need to hurt less when I push myself), and swimming, which I find is low impact, and wonderful for relaxing, even when you are exerting yourself. The only issue is the fact that A. I don't have access to one, and B. even if I did, it would be frozen over, or closed to the public when I had time.
Overall my life is wonderful, but the outstanding bits above are really putting a krimp on my brain activity. must solve issues... my OCD has manifested in bettering my life, which is the best place for it to, but it is still a disorder, so I have to keep it in check somehow.
On a different note, I am trying to figure out a way to get my exercise in without causing more stress in the above areas. I have narrowed it down to calisthenics(which I desperately need, no matter the damage to my body, my lungs need to hurt less when I push myself), and swimming, which I find is low impact, and wonderful for relaxing, even when you are exerting yourself. The only issue is the fact that A. I don't have access to one, and B. even if I did, it would be frozen over, or closed to the public when I had time.
Overall my life is wonderful, but the outstanding bits above are really putting a krimp on my brain activity. must solve issues... my OCD has manifested in bettering my life, which is the best place for it to, but it is still a disorder, so I have to keep it in check somehow.