Holiday,Pink Floyd The Wall, Reflection of myself: beliar

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Holiday,Pink Floyd The Wall, Reflection of myself

Aug 07, 2008 12:17

Hey Dears!

I had small holiday in almost all July... After such horrible 4 years of fight with my ilness I come changed, now that thought belong to the past... but like you know or maybe understand that some of the pain will always by my side... But I'm not afraid so strong and I know I can always fight and search for good way in my life..in my new life.
After all I missed my grandfather and I still miss him. I know I can always call to him and speak..and he can too... but he is a bit far away from me and still I have no forca to visite him or maybe I'm not so brave how I thought?...
I remember every holiday which I spent with my grandfather's home... Where is hide all my childhood... Childhood was special for me, I'm so thankful for it. That place was most free...the place what you only could dream.
Huge Space, lots of greens,trees,birds,woods,river,dogs,cats,horses,peace and friends... Now inside my head passing image of friends young face...my childhood friends. They were wondeful at their way;)
I believe I'll be able to visite that place again and hug my grandfather.
Next thing which I'd like to write is about my love... I was offline cause of the good weather, my pains and sad, my work and love in some kind... No it wasn't truly love... it was a feeling soft and kind... but anyway feeling. I absorbed it....now I feel sorry a bit that I didn't write about it here...
If I sould to explain about my love feelings to the boys...that would be complicated^^, I'm not so stable in my feelings and usually I don't know if I love really or maybe not...I mean I can quickly fall in lobe in guy but I need chage too.
Now I don't have any special guy;) but I had, I liked write with him , talk by phone and looked inside his eyes;)
Well you see I don't know how talk about my love...now it's just next part of my past. NO... not true! He'll always some part in my heart... I don't know...see? I can't write of it!^^

And now about something different but very important For myself...
On Saturday
Only second time I had pleasure to watch this wonderful Art- Pink Floyd The Wall , now I understood much more about Pink's life. I cried at few songs and still (today is thursday) I'm deeply touched, those all scenes, this everything in the Pink Floyd movie just touched me very much.
Bob Geldof who played Pinky touched me same like the music... he was unusual for some kind. I was absolutely at his charm... Inside of me I feel still his play,himself... it is too big feeling where I find No words to say how much I love Pink Floyd Te Wall music,movie and this amazing Bob Geldof I love him for his great work in movie and in his life.
PInk Floyd The Wall for sure will still teach me...because always I'll could find some new there about life, it is like new kind of therapy for myself.
I Thank you so much all guys who worked and created this Art
And thank you my dears that you read my entry to the end!
befor I say bye I want to put some pictures from the Wall!