Kinda bummed
This probably won't matter to anybody out there, but today was the deadline to turn in the application to compete in the Miss Michigan International pageant. I'm kinda bumming because I really wanted to do it and I couldn't get sponsors. Plus, mom and John both thought it was not the greatest idea for me to do it. I just wanted to compete... I'm not sure why... Maybe I want to prove something. Anyways, the weather today matches my mood to a T: gray. I'm not sad, not happy, just kind of in between and grayish. I really want to rollerblade since I bought new ones yesterday, but I haven't done it in so long that I feel odd going out by myself. I can't find anyone who's free to go right now, so that sucks. I should just suck it up and go for a run, but for once I don't feel like running alone. That's really weird for me since I'm usually completely opposed to running with anyone else. I breathe weird when I run and I get all red and sweaty, so I prefer to go alone! Today, though, I want to run with someone. So, of course, nobody is available. Grrr!