Paradox
Lately I've been in some sort of a lethargy; I've been listening to much more ballads and depressive rock than usual. I don't like it. There's a strange feeling of anxiety (ooh, I think I'll play BEP & Papa Roach's Anxiety next). I have so many things to do and right until the moment I come home I'm filled with energy and am sure I'll start doing them right after I've had dinner. But after I've had dinner my tummy is way too full to do anything else but sit on the PC or watch the European Championship. And if I sit on the PC all hope is lost, I visit kat-tun love, J-One records, GOE;SS, Star Candy, Minnie a day, etc. etc.... And there go two hours of my time - if I'm lucky and there aren't interesting fics or icons or new scans. The life of a fan is a hard one indeed... Oh f*ck, Germany just scored a goal. As you see, I have no problems sitting on the PC writing this entry and watching the championship at the same time.
I've finally unzipped the Fly To The Sky songs I downloaded, like, I don't know, a month ago? I'm lazy even when it comes to listening to music... They're sad and heartbreaking but since that's what I like listening to lately it's ok.
I suck at math lately. I think it has something to do with my melancholic mood. I have to have a certain half-nonchalant half-cocky attitude to get those stupid problems right. Now I feel like I've given up with the first glance casted at the equation.
Last night I downloaded The TRAX... Although the last thing I need now is another fandom. Paradox is nice and at least it has some sort of energy to it, unlike Sonata Arctica or whatever else I might have been listening to. The life is slowly returning to me. Now only if I could start talking to people again. First step of which is finding people I actually want to talk to. I wish the summer vacation would come already; the Philosophy assignment is wearing me off. And I don't have enough marks in any subject. And there are, what, two weeks left? When am I supposed to take the tests and everything? X_X
I want Saturday to come alreadyyyy......................................................................... *WHINE*
....*thinks positively* *plays Bohemian Like You* But there's got to be something good tomorrow, right? Like... Biology and Geography? I'm ready with those two! Aaand... Japanese? I'm good at Japanese... And... it might be fun... maybe? Aw who am I kidding, The Japanese will be as boring as ever, the math will kill me afterwards, I'll probably die again in PE, we don't have Biology cause the teacher is sick and even if I charge my cell phone for Geography I'm already done with Elven Chronicles and I can't find anything else that might be interesting... *changes back to Paradox*
I've finally unzipped the Fly To The Sky songs I downloaded, like, I don't know, a month ago? I'm lazy even when it comes to listening to music... They're sad and heartbreaking but since that's what I like listening to lately it's ok.
I suck at math lately. I think it has something to do with my melancholic mood. I have to have a certain half-nonchalant half-cocky attitude to get those stupid problems right. Now I feel like I've given up with the first glance casted at the equation.
Last night I downloaded The TRAX... Although the last thing I need now is another fandom. Paradox is nice and at least it has some sort of energy to it, unlike Sonata Arctica or whatever else I might have been listening to. The life is slowly returning to me. Now only if I could start talking to people again. First step of which is finding people I actually want to talk to. I wish the summer vacation would come already; the Philosophy assignment is wearing me off. And I don't have enough marks in any subject. And there are, what, two weeks left? When am I supposed to take the tests and everything? X_X
I want Saturday to come alreadyyyy......................................................................... *WHINE*
....*thinks positively* *plays Bohemian Like You* But there's got to be something good tomorrow, right? Like... Biology and Geography? I'm ready with those two! Aaand... Japanese? I'm good at Japanese... And... it might be fun... maybe? Aw who am I kidding, The Japanese will be as boring as ever, the math will kill me afterwards, I'll probably die again in PE, we don't have Biology cause the teacher is sick and even if I charge my cell phone for Geography I'm already done with Elven Chronicles and I can't find anything else that might be interesting... *changes back to Paradox*