school life
okay so now school has officially started. how exciting...not. second day of school and i have borrowed 2 books from the science/medical library. it is so untypical of me! my first time reading academic texts borrowed from library. usually i can just survive on notes and tips from smart friends aka Chem God plus hard work on my side. come to think of it, i did NOT pass a single H3 test/exam with the exception of A lvl H3. HMMMMM. i definitely need to put in more effort than i ever did in j2. i hope with all my heart that the syllabus does not transgress the parameters of my intellectual ability. if not i'll just commit suicide and dieeee.
my comments page has become very stagnant ): i think it's cuz i hardly update my blog as much as i used to. i know commenting is lj-only oops i really should change my template soon. get a more cheery and kiddy one hahaha. and one that allows everyone to tag. so people, pls comment! even though there isn't much to comment on lol.
these days i feel a sense of emptiness every morning when i wake up. it's like there's a void in me, waiting for something or someone to fill it. with what exactly, i am not sure. it's not a terrible feeling, but it is insidiously invading my core. i'm just waiting for the day i break down completely and see what's left of me. that day might not come but i can never be too sure.
i really miss my family )): i think i can burst into tears now but i try keep them in because i don't want to appear as a wimp. and mainly because i'm willing myself to be strong and independent. despite my mum's incessant nagging i still love her a lotlotlotlot. and my brother and father too. sigh. im looking forward to weekends.
okay time to sign off cuz meeting with jiahui and other hall people to go holland v for rag celebratory lunch! woohoo~