still thinking about Evelyn

[belenen]

icon: "disassociative (a digital painting of a stylized person in profile with wide open screaming mouth and arms up with palms spread wide. Head and hands flow into strands like blood vessels)"
Latest email from Evelyn had the mildest pushback and my immediate urge (which I resisted, for the most part) was to throw all my needs out the window and

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[webgirluk]

I'm a bit behind on here and am going to reply to your Evelyn posts all in on here at this thread. Hope that is okay. I often read posts "at the time" as they unfold but come back and reply later in a proper catch up as it were.

It's understandable that you should feel a lot of consuming thoughts over the situation as your bond with Evelyn is very important to you and you want to salvage what you have and be with them. To be able to talk through your problems together with the aim to work through them is fantastic and I value this as well. So few people seem willing to put in that kind of investment in a friendship or a relationship. I hear you over you needing them/close connections in general to be able to communicate if there is a problem and if they don't, then they can't then emotionally fault the other person. I think as well though, many people struggle with this or lack the self awareness.

Wow at the coincidence over Evelyn messaging at the moment you were typing when you hadn't heard back from them. I love those kind of coincidences.

I hope you can keep talking and working things out. I've been there before where I had to back down and just agree with someone in order to please them and not push them away with more heavy discussion where my needs were not being met. I think with some people, it just needs to be that way.