what mental issue is most difficult for me to talk about right now / how I morally contradict myself

[belenen]

icon: "honesty (me, outdoors, gazing straight at the camera with a solemn expression)"
What mental problem is the most difficult for you to speak about/work on right now? Why? (from hereI'm not quite sure what is meant by mental problem but I will interpret it as emotional/psychological issue. Most difficult is probably feeling anxiety and stress

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[lusimeles]

you have very high moral standards!

quick question: why the "x" for starbucks? i do it sometimes over text ("sbux") bc of laziness, but that's obviously not the case for your journal. (you don't have to answer if it's too personal - i'm just curious.)

[belenen]

heh, I have no good reason -- it's just that I hate them as a company and don't want to reference them in an easily searchable way.

[lusimeles]

Ha ha, totally fair. Thanks for answering!

[ragnarok_08]

I know the feeling, of anxiety and stress and not wanting to talk about it. I haven't considered medication, as I'm on the fence of it as well.

I don't berate myself for it because that's useless and counterproductive; I just try to figure out a way to balance it or do better.

That's a good thing.

[belenen]

if you do try a medication I hope it works well for you on the first try!

[atmilliways]

Do you take any vitamin D? This was because I had a deficiency, but I started taking 2000 iu supplement gels a year ago (after my megadose 50,000 iu prescription ran out, I guess I was pretty deficient indeed) and it made a big difference. Not just my mental state too, I feel a lot better in the mornings and not too inexplicably queasy to eat breakfast. I still have anxiety and I am also on medication for that now, but when I forget to take the vitamin D I feel like I get a little out of whack. Maybe it would help you out too. :)

Regarding Starbucks, do you have any Peet’s Coffee places near you? They tend to have better quality drinks, but the baristas are somewhat more hit or miss. And they’re coming up with a members reward/customer loyalty program like Starbucks has soon, I hear, which is nice.

[belenen]

I do, actually -- I take 5000 iu softgels every day. I started it to prevent sunburn, and then learned that it is good for SAD and can decrease risk of cancer (which runs in my family) so I keep taking it.

We have a few other coffeeshops -- Caribou is my favorite of the chains -- but none are close, and the indie coffeeshops are usually lacking in space or hours or drivethru :-[ I miss the two indie coffeeshops which I was soooooooooo faithful to until they closed.

[meri_sielu]

The fact that you strive to live up to your level of standards the way you do I think outweighs the small amount of mishaps and contradictions we all make here and there. I for instance am the same with shopping bags, I feel awful whenever I forget my bags for life and end up needing to buy more plastic carriers. I physically beat myself up over my carelessness but then I remember I really rarely forget my bags and I do try really hard and for me, they trying is what counts.

[belenen]

aw, I am sad to know that you are so hard on yourself. The trying and never giving up is so important and worth being pleased with yourself about <3