an 'about me' that is exceedingly dense and comprehensive.

[belenen]

icon: "vivacious (my face with bold cat-eye makeup, with my head tilted down and to the side, looking at the camera with a wide close-lipped smile, hugging myself)"
There is a steep learning curve for most people to be close with me because I am so different from the default in identity, values, and language.

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[sabraka]

I hope my writing isn't of any offence. A lot of my more aggressive language derives from a place of attempted humor, I think. I'm all about some stand-up. Even when joking though, I understand words can be hurtful. I struggle with words & communication in general, & I am not exactly what's considered neurotypical, either. When I write though, I am better able to see what it is I'm trying to say, & work on having it make sense. Striving to eliminate any hurtful slurs, is certainly something I can become more aware of & work on.

On the note of reclaiming slurs, "crazy" is one I've come to identify with. Even if it's something others have called me since the cruel days of school age. I was also called "queer", but I'm guessing it was meant as "strange; odd". Yes, I know knowing me can be confusing, & I'm sorry! Anyway, I go ahead & own it, along with "weird".

I totally hear you on the "work myself up to being ready to interact" bit. I have to be careful not to mentally drain my own energy, too. I tend to worry too much about everything. Also, executive functioning issues, argh. I don't know about my head, but my heart is in the right place, promise!

[belenen]

*nods* I understand struggling with communication in general and I imagine that makes it harder to train out certain words and phrases. It's extremely rare that someone offends me when they are trying to be respectful -- in fact I am not sure it has even happened once. I get offended by stuff people do on purpose, knowingly, not by stuff people do accidentally or without knowing that it is hurtful.