feeling undesirable/unimportant due to lack of friends (except odd squad) & lack of group connection

[belenen]

icon: "tenebrous (a shadowy orange-light photo of my face, looking down, with an achingly sad expression)"

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[webgirluk]

I relate very much to this entry and experience similar feelings. Having a social web with meaningful interactions and different combinations of said interactions is very important to me, also. From my perspective looking in, you appear to have the friendships in person and social gatherings I could only dream of but I know as well, it's about we feel about it for ourselves and our personal needs. I'd love an "odd squad" group of friends (love the nickname) and I'm not sure if I really have any friend who I could rely on to definitely come to an important event in my life, although I think one would value the connection and importance of it and try. Another might but hard to tell when there haven't been any events to put it to the test. As you mentioned, I think distance makes it harder at times. I would have the social opportunities if my friends online all lived in my area. I too cry a lot about the situation and grieve for the people I'll probably never know even exist in this world, if many of them even do. I often find with all my needs and non conforming ways, it puts me too much at the end of a spectrum of sorts to truly be able to meet many people to bond with.

[belenen]

*offers hugs* I feel you so much on that. Why are all the great people so damn scattered across the globe?? I also feel too different to easily find people. If only we could all teleport.