Feel bad about not writing / utter failure at making friends / SDS

[belenen]

icon: "pensive (my face at a 3/4ths angle, looking down, with a pensive expression. I am wearing a dark purple glitter goatee, and behind me is a sunny forest.)"
October 2:
I feel alienated from myself due to not writing. There's just so much going on all the time and I crave rest and feel like I never get any time. I start writing something on my

Comments

[tikva]

Wait, we don't just get to see you, we get to meet Topaz?!? :)

[xprincessdoomx]

I pretty much given up on friends. The ones I have could give two shits about me. I'm never invited to anything so, I don't bother making any. If it happens it happens and I'm cool with that but, I'm always by myself. Sucks sometimes when you want to go do something that would be fun with someone else.

[fayriekisses]

:(

[xprincessdoomx]

Why sad face?

[kehlen]

I am glad to see you post: I was wondering if you're all right.

I have also wanted to tell you that after that honesty google hangout, I feel closer to you than I did before. I don't know quite how to describe it, but I used to see some of your entries as harsh, and they feel much less so now.

[feladrone]

I know I hardly ever comment on your journal, but I've missed you while you've been gone. <3

I've only had two dreams like that, where I dreamed about someone who doesn't actually exist. It's the worst, you just miss them so much, and there's nothing you can do about it.

[webgirluk]

I feel for your struggles on forming in person friends as I'm the same although I'm glad you have three close local good friends, at least. It helps although I understand often there can be a need for something extra even when we're not sure *exactly* what that gap in the friendship needs truly is. I guess talking to strangers is easier as you don't have the same pressure or worry over the friendship working out? At least it is this way for me. I'm reading a good book on cultivating friendships at the moment that might be a useful read for you.