poll - if I gave you a book, would you read it soon? & how do you feel about me sending you energy?

[belenen]

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random questions I've been meaning to ask:
Poll The latter is because I'm considering a daily practice wherein I draw a name from a jar and send that person positive energy of some

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[callmebee]

I chose "other" because I think I would feel terribly guilty if you were sending me positive energy, using your own strength and kindness to do something that benefits me, and did nothing in return. I think there is always a balance of energy, and gifting energy is a beautiful thing, but I think some kind of even trade is more my speed.

If we were closer, say you were one of my closest friends, I would feel honored to accept the gift of prayer and energy without worrying about it, because I know that my friendship will eventually feed you as much as your energy fed me. However, that isn't the case.

If I knew you were sending me energy, I would make it a point to open myself up to it, first of all, rather than being confused about foreign energy "attacking" me (which is often how it feels to me to have others' energy enter my sphere without knowing what it is and the intent behind it cognitively. I often get that feeling when a misguided family member prays for my perceived sins, and I get this wave of energy that is all icky and wrong.). Then I would let the energy work, instead of fighting it (because there's nothing worse than knowing your energy was wasted by someone who can't accept it), then I would send every bit of gratitude back your way. In that case, I would be like the idea of you (or anyone, I suppose) sending energy.

After writing it all out, I can see now how fear driven this is. I think I've been given so much and truly accepted it and been grateful for it only to find secret strings attached. Secret needs in the person sending energy or love or whatever my way, that I want to protect myself from the pain of realizing the gift was actually bait for me to give more to them, that I need to be told specifically if the energy/prayer/love/gift is truly out of their own hearts, or if it is some need they have hidden behind a lie of love. Make sense? I just realized it, so it might be a bit wobbly in words still.

I guess, in conclusion, I like the idea of energy. I like the idea of a daily practice in which one gives of themselves freely. I believe you if you say that it is freely and gladly given, because I know that you are self aware and honest. If it is something you WANT to give, it must mean that giving, for you, is a way of nourishing yourself. I'd be honored, actually, to be in your energy jar :o)

[belenen]

I really appreciate you feeling all this out and sharing it! When I do energy work I do not use my own energy, I pull from the universe at large or ask a specific being to send me energy to use. The only time I use my own energy is when I am deliberately connecting with someone, and it's more like I use my energy as another sense rather than giving it away.

I feel you on the sensing of energy you don't recognize, especially when that energy is trying to change something about you. My grandmother once sent me a card that had such terrible clinging wormy energy on it that it made me feel terrible for hours until I realized what it was and could consciously reject it.

awww, I am happy that you would like to be included :D I really am glad to have more LJ interactions with you nowadays!