spiritually inspired/nourished / how I meditate / what eye contact feels like for me

[belenen]

icon: "woven souls (me and Hannah lying naked on black cloth, with legs entwined, laying on our sides facing each other with one set of hands entwined with each other's, and the top shoulder leaning back, relaxed. there is a red and violet overlay with the violet coloring me and the red coloring Hannah)"I haven't been this regularly spiritually

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[lilywolfsolomon]

So, with you, I would like to go to the "vulnerable to you" level and raise you one. :) I mean, it's so so rare for me to feel challenged in vulnerability, usually the challenge is coping with a society that expects the opposite. You can't scare me, hehehe. It's up to you to trust when/if that feels right to you but I would at least like to declare that I feel I can hold it all and would delight in holding it all. And honestly I'd probably ask for eyegazing every day or something, so it's hard for me to get a grip on when to ask for it! Whenever you want it I think more often than not I'll be open to it if not right away within a couple hours. :) So maybe you can help me figure out the best timing/approach to asking for something that I'm pretty much always open to? I.e. how to best negotiate it happening often enough that it's really fulfilling for both of us without making assumptions that it's not wanted or holding back just because that's the norm. What I notice way too often is how people *don't* ask for things because they assume that's what the other wants, or hold back for that same reason, when it's like the furthest thing from the actual truth. Like entire marriages are born and fail on this assumption! I want to live more from, not what if it's not wanted, but what if it is?! That's what I do a lot and I think I'm ready to explore new ways of negotiating things, a new sort of calculus, how to find the maxima of the equation. Or the finding the limit of the integral (t) of fulfillment as f goes to infinity. *giggle* Hmmm. AMAIF: as much as is fulfilling (just made up a new acronym). And ANAP (as nourishing as possible), another one, and naps certainly are nourishing much of the time. :D