I can definitely empathize with it being far harder to deal with being depressed when you don't have something you can point to and say "that, that's what's wrong." It leaves you with a nasty amorphous feeling, and you have to fight not to stack depression and anger at being on depressed on top of being depressed, despite the fact that if it was someone else you'd tell them that that was ridiculous and they shouldn't beat themselves up.
By "you" I mean "I feel that way," by the way. It's a bad verbal habit. I read a quote recently that all advice is really autobiography, and I agree with that, in both its good and bad aspects.
Anyway. It hurts, and it sucks, but at least for me it's usually meant that I'm either processing growth I've just done or about to start new and exciting growth--and if it was at the point that I could write about it, that was a sign I was on the upward spiral back to balance.
*Hugs* From everything I know and have read of your strength and beauty-of-being, you'll come out of it, and come out better.
As for feeling failure-ish and wanting to be desired, not tolerated...
Thinking about you or seeing you makes my spine melt, and anyone who doesn't see the shining fae warrior fecund glow of your _you_ enough to feel strongly about you and like what they feel is BLIND.
mmm, I never thought of the words fae warrior together before. I always called Belenen a dragon, or a paladin, but those never quite hit the mark. Fae warrior is exactly right, thank you.
By "you" I mean "I feel that way," by the way. It's a bad verbal habit. I read a quote recently that all advice is really autobiography, and I agree with that, in both its good and bad aspects.
Anyway. It hurts, and it sucks, but at least for me it's usually meant that I'm either processing growth I've just done or about to start new and exciting growth--and if it was at the point that I could write about it, that was a sign I was on the upward spiral back to balance.
*Hugs* From everything I know and have read of your strength and beauty-of-being, you'll come out of it, and come out better.
As for feeling failure-ish and wanting to be desired, not tolerated...
Thinking about you or seeing you makes my spine melt, and anyone who doesn't see the shining fae warrior fecund glow of your _you_ enough to feel strongly about you and like what they feel is BLIND.
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