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I know how to deal with being hurt. I don't know how to deal with hate. It's so unfair that I'm crawling out mangled and [ex]'s just fucking peachy. I want to hurt [ex]. I really, desperately do. But I don't have the guts to do anything. So I'm just alternating crying and screaming (into my pillow). I hate life right now. I would hate to be around me right now. I HATE I HATE no I don't want this. No. no. I feel like the very core of me has been FUCKED UP. I don't know how to be. I just want out. Who the fuck am I and how am I SO FUCKING INSIGNIFICANT?
How could you just NOT CARE?