To live and Die in the OC
*As if*
things have been pretty normal as of late, other then hearing from Alex that his girlfriend and him broke up. He seems pretty torn up about it, and thats quite a shame. The last thing I want is to see him unhappy, but hes young and I do feel that pang of pain from past relationships when they end. Im sure he will do fine, the kids' strong but it still hurts to see him going through it.
Rick recently decided we are going to get matching tattoos with our crest, but the problem is that in order to manage it, the tattoo must be at least around 9x6, which seriously isnt realistic. As proud as I am of the crest, I cant imagine a tattoo on my body that large. Instead, we are looking at other alternatives, maybe using the elements from our crest in order to keep some semblance of the original items in it.
Cheryl recently sent me pictures of Adrian, the house she lives in, and a pic of her. Its hard to imagine ever really being in love with her now, her and I live in such different worlds and have such different ideas of how to treat people and what its like to have emotions about people. I mean, come on, how many people do you know that you used to date ask you if you're fucking your current girlfriend yet? My previous exes are usually pretty respectful and considerate, and she has been so invasive. I know she wants to get into my business so she could hope for some way of possibly finding an "in" again, even though I already put up the sign that clearly says, "no Vacancy".
Recently with others' experiences I began to realize how lucky I am now that my gaming friends have decided to ostracize me. Their viewpoints on life and mine dont co-mingle that well. I know I didn't do what they thought was important to them, and judged me based on my hardships, and Im okay with that. Ive found people in my life now, like Robert and the group I used to party with, that really showed that they won't judge you for your actions no matter what. That kind of friend is really the best you can really ever ask for.
What I find ironic is that one of people from that whole group is all thats left of my friends, whom I tried to burn a bridge with. Hell I tried to nuke that bridge. With God's help, I realized I didnt have to do that, I just needed to realize how to forgive/apologize/ and how to learn how to deal with each other. Patience, Forgiveness, and Understanding wins out in the end.
Sometimes I get aggressive, beligerent, even nasty. Sometimes the fire burns inside and it finally has to rush out. I guess I brought something back from Iraq I never meant to.
things have been pretty normal as of late, other then hearing from Alex that his girlfriend and him broke up. He seems pretty torn up about it, and thats quite a shame. The last thing I want is to see him unhappy, but hes young and I do feel that pang of pain from past relationships when they end. Im sure he will do fine, the kids' strong but it still hurts to see him going through it.
Rick recently decided we are going to get matching tattoos with our crest, but the problem is that in order to manage it, the tattoo must be at least around 9x6, which seriously isnt realistic. As proud as I am of the crest, I cant imagine a tattoo on my body that large. Instead, we are looking at other alternatives, maybe using the elements from our crest in order to keep some semblance of the original items in it.
Cheryl recently sent me pictures of Adrian, the house she lives in, and a pic of her. Its hard to imagine ever really being in love with her now, her and I live in such different worlds and have such different ideas of how to treat people and what its like to have emotions about people. I mean, come on, how many people do you know that you used to date ask you if you're fucking your current girlfriend yet? My previous exes are usually pretty respectful and considerate, and she has been so invasive. I know she wants to get into my business so she could hope for some way of possibly finding an "in" again, even though I already put up the sign that clearly says, "no Vacancy".
Recently with others' experiences I began to realize how lucky I am now that my gaming friends have decided to ostracize me. Their viewpoints on life and mine dont co-mingle that well. I know I didn't do what they thought was important to them, and judged me based on my hardships, and Im okay with that. Ive found people in my life now, like Robert and the group I used to party with, that really showed that they won't judge you for your actions no matter what. That kind of friend is really the best you can really ever ask for.
What I find ironic is that one of people from that whole group is all thats left of my friends, whom I tried to burn a bridge with. Hell I tried to nuke that bridge. With God's help, I realized I didnt have to do that, I just needed to realize how to forgive/apologize/ and how to learn how to deal with each other. Patience, Forgiveness, and Understanding wins out in the end.
Sometimes I get aggressive, beligerent, even nasty. Sometimes the fire burns inside and it finally has to rush out. I guess I brought something back from Iraq I never meant to.