A odd post
So this is going to be an out of the ordinary post. If for no other reason, this will make me feel better.
I'm going to speak about my old WoW Guild.
The more former members I speak with, the more I realize how truly out of touch most of my members were with the struggle that was going on. All of my guild drama, fights, conflicts, issues, ect, I keep private. I don't air my dirty laundry, a good leader doesn't do that. I work behind the scenes, good and bad, and make the engine go vroom. Thats my job.
However, over the last 4 months or so, I've spoken with quite a few old members, and every one of them had a totally different view of what was going on in the guild, what I was doing, why I did it ect. This really upsets me......was I even in the same guild with some of these people? We sure did see 2 different things here.
I had a conversation last night with some of the texas guys, which was the arrival point that made me decide to write this. There was just so much going on, so much I had to try to make happen, and so much going against esp, especially server and playerbase wise, I simply couldn't control, and I did the best I could.
To get us where we had gotten, I don't think I could have done it any other way w/o merging us with some other guild and giving up all posititons of power, our rules and doctrine. Basically, break up the guild and go elsewhere, which wasn't an option in my mind. We were our own entity, and no one wanted otherwise.
So..to those who can see this post who were there, wether you knew what was going on or not, to those who know people who were with us, let them know of this post, and to those who will never see it, my concious can still use the break....I am sorry I couldn't do more for you.
If any of you trust me as a leader, trust my decisions were always the best intention for the guild even with I was forced between a rock and a hard place. Know I was NOT happy with alot of the decisions I had to make near the end, but I had to choose the option that gave the guild more of what we all wanted, and needed, to continue moving and continue being a force on our server. Looking back, there is very little decisions I could have made differently to keep us progressing like we were, when we did, and accomplish what we were all loved and known for. I regret things weren't perfect, and I regret the issues that resolved because of my decisions.
The burden of a leader is knowing, when there are no good decisions, you do whats best for the team. Not for you, not for a friend, but whats good for the team.
The other burden is, when all the decisions will do harm, one must still be made, and all the criticism that comes with it, you must endure.
I'm not sure what else I could have done. If I let you down, I am sorry. Just understand there was alot more going on than anyone realizes, and I did everything I could for you.
If you were not happy with how things worked out, and feel my leadership and decisions were the problem, then I respect that, and wish ya well. No hard feelings.
To those who still trust me, or those who are just along for the ride for Vanguard, know I learned alot, good and bad, from our prior experience, and I will continue to do what I need to do, to make our Vanguard guild exactly what we all want. You can always talk to me about an issue or a decision I made, and I'll be happy to explain.
Thank you for those who stood by me, I will do everything I can to do the right thing, and help you enjoy the games to the fullest.
This post isnt by Beld, or Grim, or my real indentity.
This post is from a leader, good or bad, have it as you will.
Thank you for listening.
I'm going to speak about my old WoW Guild.
The more former members I speak with, the more I realize how truly out of touch most of my members were with the struggle that was going on. All of my guild drama, fights, conflicts, issues, ect, I keep private. I don't air my dirty laundry, a good leader doesn't do that. I work behind the scenes, good and bad, and make the engine go vroom. Thats my job.
However, over the last 4 months or so, I've spoken with quite a few old members, and every one of them had a totally different view of what was going on in the guild, what I was doing, why I did it ect. This really upsets me......was I even in the same guild with some of these people? We sure did see 2 different things here.
I had a conversation last night with some of the texas guys, which was the arrival point that made me decide to write this. There was just so much going on, so much I had to try to make happen, and so much going against esp, especially server and playerbase wise, I simply couldn't control, and I did the best I could.
To get us where we had gotten, I don't think I could have done it any other way w/o merging us with some other guild and giving up all posititons of power, our rules and doctrine. Basically, break up the guild and go elsewhere, which wasn't an option in my mind. We were our own entity, and no one wanted otherwise.
So..to those who can see this post who were there, wether you knew what was going on or not, to those who know people who were with us, let them know of this post, and to those who will never see it, my concious can still use the break....I am sorry I couldn't do more for you.
If any of you trust me as a leader, trust my decisions were always the best intention for the guild even with I was forced between a rock and a hard place. Know I was NOT happy with alot of the decisions I had to make near the end, but I had to choose the option that gave the guild more of what we all wanted, and needed, to continue moving and continue being a force on our server. Looking back, there is very little decisions I could have made differently to keep us progressing like we were, when we did, and accomplish what we were all loved and known for. I regret things weren't perfect, and I regret the issues that resolved because of my decisions.
The burden of a leader is knowing, when there are no good decisions, you do whats best for the team. Not for you, not for a friend, but whats good for the team.
The other burden is, when all the decisions will do harm, one must still be made, and all the criticism that comes with it, you must endure.
I'm not sure what else I could have done. If I let you down, I am sorry. Just understand there was alot more going on than anyone realizes, and I did everything I could for you.
If you were not happy with how things worked out, and feel my leadership and decisions were the problem, then I respect that, and wish ya well. No hard feelings.
To those who still trust me, or those who are just along for the ride for Vanguard, know I learned alot, good and bad, from our prior experience, and I will continue to do what I need to do, to make our Vanguard guild exactly what we all want. You can always talk to me about an issue or a decision I made, and I'll be happy to explain.
Thank you for those who stood by me, I will do everything I can to do the right thing, and help you enjoy the games to the fullest.
This post isnt by Beld, or Grim, or my real indentity.
This post is from a leader, good or bad, have it as you will.
Thank you for listening.