Music
Yaknow whats nice? Rediscovery.
I love owning an album for years, listening to it 100x, only to realize, theres 1 song on there I've heard but never LISTENED too.
When you do, it strikes you, it MEANS something to you, you like it x1000 times more, and the entire CD feels new.
Its a rare occurance but its happened to me this week. The song is a bit of a downer but, I can really connect with it.
So allow me my moment of emo here, I feel the need to post the lyrics.
"The Leaving Song"
Walked away, heard them say
"Poison hearts will never change, walk away again"
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within
It's hard to notice gleaming from the sky
When you're staring at the cracks
It's hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered
You... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change, walk away again"
All the cracks they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me
All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me, and I fell apart
As I... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change"
Walked away again
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within....."
For some randomness, I have aquired to full contact sparring suits of armor. Jeremy and I had a 45 min sparring session the other day. Final score was 25 to 3 me. Standard tournament point rules. Was alot of fun, except I'm extremely pissed at my lack of flexibility, muscle resistance, and inability to safely close the distance. It's been SO long since I was in an actual fight, closing the distance between my opponent in a safe manner is lost to me. My body was very sore after doing stretching and reps of combinations for 3 hours, the next day after the actual fight, I was even more sore, today its finally lessening up. God I need a trainer again, I hate being this ineffective.
On the plus side, I can still sneak in a spinning back kick, and it seems I can kick alot harder than I remember. I was going about 50% power the entire time, and both of Jeremy's forearms are covered in skin break bruises. Looks like he has some kinda skin disease heh. Didnt' know I could do that kinda damage, least I still have that!
My birthday is fast approaching, and I used to always make a joke every b-day about how "Im getting and feeling so old!" Well....I really mean it this time.
I truly do feel old. Like....life is almost over old. I dunno, its weird. All those feelings of regret and "fuck it" you always hear from people once there in their late 50's early 60's, Im making now and meaning it.
I just kinda feel like I'm done and done everything. It couldn't be further from the truth of course, but I sure as shit feel that way.
Its kinda bothering me, and I'm not sure why it's this way. Getting old sucks.
I love owning an album for years, listening to it 100x, only to realize, theres 1 song on there I've heard but never LISTENED too.
When you do, it strikes you, it MEANS something to you, you like it x1000 times more, and the entire CD feels new.
Its a rare occurance but its happened to me this week. The song is a bit of a downer but, I can really connect with it.
So allow me my moment of emo here, I feel the need to post the lyrics.
"The Leaving Song"
Walked away, heard them say
"Poison hearts will never change, walk away again"
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within
It's hard to notice gleaming from the sky
When you're staring at the cracks
It's hard to notice what is passing by with eyes lowered
You... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change, walk away again"
All the cracks they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me
All the cracks, they lead right to me
And all the cracks will crawl right through me, and I fell apart
As I... walked away, heard them say
"Poisoned hearts will never change"
Walked away again
Turned away in disgrace
Felt the chill upon my face cooling from within....."
For some randomness, I have aquired to full contact sparring suits of armor. Jeremy and I had a 45 min sparring session the other day. Final score was 25 to 3 me. Standard tournament point rules. Was alot of fun, except I'm extremely pissed at my lack of flexibility, muscle resistance, and inability to safely close the distance. It's been SO long since I was in an actual fight, closing the distance between my opponent in a safe manner is lost to me. My body was very sore after doing stretching and reps of combinations for 3 hours, the next day after the actual fight, I was even more sore, today its finally lessening up. God I need a trainer again, I hate being this ineffective.
On the plus side, I can still sneak in a spinning back kick, and it seems I can kick alot harder than I remember. I was going about 50% power the entire time, and both of Jeremy's forearms are covered in skin break bruises. Looks like he has some kinda skin disease heh. Didnt' know I could do that kinda damage, least I still have that!
My birthday is fast approaching, and I used to always make a joke every b-day about how "Im getting and feeling so old!" Well....I really mean it this time.
I truly do feel old. Like....life is almost over old. I dunno, its weird. All those feelings of regret and "fuck it" you always hear from people once there in their late 50's early 60's, Im making now and meaning it.
I just kinda feel like I'm done and done everything. It couldn't be further from the truth of course, but I sure as shit feel that way.
Its kinda bothering me, and I'm not sure why it's this way. Getting old sucks.