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My search for work, so far is a failure. I had some things going with Intel but there currently downsizing massively so theres a hiring freeze. Lame
Havent had any decent leads otherwise, I dropped an application or 2 with Sigil, but these are pipedreams, but you gotta try yaknow?
I got some new RAM for my comp, 2 gigs of Corsain DDR ram. Zooooom. If I can scrape together some graphics card money by Nov I'll be gtg for Vanguard when its released.
Josh's next court day is May 10th, no idea what'll happen then.
Big Josh is acting....strange lately. I dont wanna get into it here because well, I dont. If you care, you can contact me about it.
Between Josh possibly being gone this month and Big Josh having his weird issues, which coencide with his finacial issues, I may be in some serious shit soon. I realize most people who read this are out of state friends but, if anyone was considering moving to AZ soon, I got a room for rent prolly in June =p
Aside from them above condition, money is tight but good. Got another raise and getting 40 hours + a week and Graveyard differential for my shitty shift is at least stabilizing my checkbook. Just wish I could toss more at the Credit Card and less at gas.
Things with Keri have been...interesting. Just once, I'd like an "easy" Girlfriend. Dont read this the wrong way, I dont mean easy like hop in the sack, I mean, one I can take out, have a good time with, we both have fun together, and end up a couple. I don't know why this ultra simple idea, is so foreign to me. The CLOSEST to this example has been Trina, but that still came with a truckload of situational issues, and then of course, she was a lousy worthless girlfriend and a total fucking whore =p.
Anywho, just to confirm due to my poor ability to word things at 5am, no, Keri and I are not a couple, just going out.
The beginning of our relationship can be summed up like this. I personally love this little analogy I wrote.
"We were off together to our island paradise, but the boat started to sink on the way"
As I went to write that, I realized I dont REMEMBER exactly what I said, so now im all irritated, but it was something to that degree.
Anywho, without getting into details, the 2nd date went very well. The 3rd date alot of issues came up. To simplify it, she basically got overwhelmed with how well things were going, and got scared a good guy showed up who actually gives 2 shits about her, and it scared her to the point of not wanting to date anymore. I cannot fucking win here. She also has some baggage (fuck doesnt everyone?) and thats 'helping' this problem along.
Needless to say, I was extremely bummed out that day. The next night tho, she called and realized, it would probably be one of the worst decisions she ever made if she just let me dissapear, esp with how well things were going and what im willing to put up with (and everyone who knows me, knows thats a retarded amount, but no, its nothing that bad) So we had a talk, and all hang ups have been set aside to work on our potential relationship.
Hurray, being a nice guy actually paid off finally. Just too bad it ALSO brought problems with it lol. I cannot fucking win.
On the plus side, I'm very not worried about being used in a malicious manner this time. When she mentioned not wanting to "go out" anymore she was mostly citing reasons to protect me. It was very similar to a conversation I've had with someone in the past.
The downside of course is, anyone who shows me they care enough about me to NOT want to hurt me, just makes me like them more, because thats an unheard of trait in the women I find. Selfish fucking bitches they are heh.
So things are going slow but good I guess, all difficulties and drama aside. Just wish I had more time (fricken work scheduale) less of a drive, and less overall drama in my life. Stuff haunts me I tell ya!
I've learned quite alot more about Vanguard recently. Been doing deep forum scans etc for info people need. So for anyone wanting more info on the game, im the guy to talk too.
Gwidion unfortunately due to a work related move (I'll discuss this later) won't be able to be active in Vanguard after release, so we won't be rebuilding HavenLight like I've been hoping. If needed, I dont mind running another guild, but I truly wish to go in with some compotent help this time.
I'm still proud of what I accomplished with SoB, but I can never shake the feeling of failure, even if it was beyond my control, and the eventual downfall of the guild couldn't have been helped, it was only delayed and caused more issues with who I invited to help preserve it.
I will stick with my guns, and no one elses this time, I just need to find a like minded individual to help me run it.
Speaking of, I need to get cracking on the website. The sooner I get a guild website going, the more info we can spread and easier contact I can keep with my members.
However I need a new provider. My friend who hooked me up with the website and domain can no longer give me the same deal. SO, if anyone has some webspace I can buy/rent from them cheaply, or can simply provide for me, I would appreciate it.
I also, as ALWAYS, need a web designer. Nothing major at first, just a little help setting up the forum is fine for now. I can manage the forums np.
If you can help with any of these things, please leave me a message or get my e-mail from a mutual friend and lets talk.
Have a nice night folks
My search for work, so far is a failure. I had some things going with Intel but there currently downsizing massively so theres a hiring freeze. Lame
Havent had any decent leads otherwise, I dropped an application or 2 with Sigil, but these are pipedreams, but you gotta try yaknow?
I got some new RAM for my comp, 2 gigs of Corsain DDR ram. Zooooom. If I can scrape together some graphics card money by Nov I'll be gtg for Vanguard when its released.
Josh's next court day is May 10th, no idea what'll happen then.
Big Josh is acting....strange lately. I dont wanna get into it here because well, I dont. If you care, you can contact me about it.
Between Josh possibly being gone this month and Big Josh having his weird issues, which coencide with his finacial issues, I may be in some serious shit soon. I realize most people who read this are out of state friends but, if anyone was considering moving to AZ soon, I got a room for rent prolly in June =p
Aside from them above condition, money is tight but good. Got another raise and getting 40 hours + a week and Graveyard differential for my shitty shift is at least stabilizing my checkbook. Just wish I could toss more at the Credit Card and less at gas.
Things with Keri have been...interesting. Just once, I'd like an "easy" Girlfriend. Dont read this the wrong way, I dont mean easy like hop in the sack, I mean, one I can take out, have a good time with, we both have fun together, and end up a couple. I don't know why this ultra simple idea, is so foreign to me. The CLOSEST to this example has been Trina, but that still came with a truckload of situational issues, and then of course, she was a lousy worthless girlfriend and a total fucking whore =p.
Anywho, just to confirm due to my poor ability to word things at 5am, no, Keri and I are not a couple, just going out.
The beginning of our relationship can be summed up like this. I personally love this little analogy I wrote.
"We were off together to our island paradise, but the boat started to sink on the way"
As I went to write that, I realized I dont REMEMBER exactly what I said, so now im all irritated, but it was something to that degree.
Anywho, without getting into details, the 2nd date went very well. The 3rd date alot of issues came up. To simplify it, she basically got overwhelmed with how well things were going, and got scared a good guy showed up who actually gives 2 shits about her, and it scared her to the point of not wanting to date anymore. I cannot fucking win here. She also has some baggage (fuck doesnt everyone?) and thats 'helping' this problem along.
Needless to say, I was extremely bummed out that day. The next night tho, she called and realized, it would probably be one of the worst decisions she ever made if she just let me dissapear, esp with how well things were going and what im willing to put up with (and everyone who knows me, knows thats a retarded amount, but no, its nothing that bad) So we had a talk, and all hang ups have been set aside to work on our potential relationship.
Hurray, being a nice guy actually paid off finally. Just too bad it ALSO brought problems with it lol. I cannot fucking win.
On the plus side, I'm very not worried about being used in a malicious manner this time. When she mentioned not wanting to "go out" anymore she was mostly citing reasons to protect me. It was very similar to a conversation I've had with someone in the past.
The downside of course is, anyone who shows me they care enough about me to NOT want to hurt me, just makes me like them more, because thats an unheard of trait in the women I find. Selfish fucking bitches they are heh.
So things are going slow but good I guess, all difficulties and drama aside. Just wish I had more time (fricken work scheduale) less of a drive, and less overall drama in my life. Stuff haunts me I tell ya!
I've learned quite alot more about Vanguard recently. Been doing deep forum scans etc for info people need. So for anyone wanting more info on the game, im the guy to talk too.
Gwidion unfortunately due to a work related move (I'll discuss this later) won't be able to be active in Vanguard after release, so we won't be rebuilding HavenLight like I've been hoping. If needed, I dont mind running another guild, but I truly wish to go in with some compotent help this time.
I'm still proud of what I accomplished with SoB, but I can never shake the feeling of failure, even if it was beyond my control, and the eventual downfall of the guild couldn't have been helped, it was only delayed and caused more issues with who I invited to help preserve it.
I will stick with my guns, and no one elses this time, I just need to find a like minded individual to help me run it.
Speaking of, I need to get cracking on the website. The sooner I get a guild website going, the more info we can spread and easier contact I can keep with my members.
However I need a new provider. My friend who hooked me up with the website and domain can no longer give me the same deal. SO, if anyone has some webspace I can buy/rent from them cheaply, or can simply provide for me, I would appreciate it.
I also, as ALWAYS, need a web designer. Nothing major at first, just a little help setting up the forum is fine for now. I can manage the forums np.
If you can help with any of these things, please leave me a message or get my e-mail from a mutual friend and lets talk.
Have a nice night folks