Can't let it go
This is a first for me.
I cannot let this anger go.
Now, anyone who knows me knows when im angry/pissed off about something, I'll bitch/rant about it for a long time.
Contrary to the usual rule, I do this to handle and deal with issues. Usually by the time I'm doing this (and laughing about it) I'm over it. Its my coping method.
However this last event, with the last ex. I cannot let it go.
I dunno why, it'll come up either in conversation, or I'll think about it while i'm bored at work, or whatever, and I just-get-mad.
I start trying to figure it out, apply logic to it, reason out why this happened, whatever.
And I get pissed.
I'm not even sure WHY this is making me so mad. I've been thru worse, I've been lied to more, about worse things. I've had all this happen to me from women I've cared more about.
Why not? Why is this eating at me so?
Now, I know what I should do. I need to try and stop thinking about it, be the bigger person and just drop all this shit, and I need to keep it from eating away at me, because it'll just make things worse, stress me out etc etc, I know all this.
It's just not working man, I'm just staying angry. I really don't like this heh.
Dunno what to do...
Oh, Nightwatch = the win. Everyone go see it, NOW!
Later
I cannot let this anger go.
Now, anyone who knows me knows when im angry/pissed off about something, I'll bitch/rant about it for a long time.
Contrary to the usual rule, I do this to handle and deal with issues. Usually by the time I'm doing this (and laughing about it) I'm over it. Its my coping method.
However this last event, with the last ex. I cannot let it go.
I dunno why, it'll come up either in conversation, or I'll think about it while i'm bored at work, or whatever, and I just-get-mad.
I start trying to figure it out, apply logic to it, reason out why this happened, whatever.
And I get pissed.
I'm not even sure WHY this is making me so mad. I've been thru worse, I've been lied to more, about worse things. I've had all this happen to me from women I've cared more about.
Why not? Why is this eating at me so?
Now, I know what I should do. I need to try and stop thinking about it, be the bigger person and just drop all this shit, and I need to keep it from eating away at me, because it'll just make things worse, stress me out etc etc, I know all this.
It's just not working man, I'm just staying angry. I really don't like this heh.
Dunno what to do...
Oh, Nightwatch = the win. Everyone go see it, NOW!
Later