Jan 15, 2013 22:04
Happy new year everyone!!! But it's not so happy for the past two weeks and unfortunately, this week isn't so happy at work!!!
I just have no clue where to start.. I've been thinking about this over and over in my head. The last time I felt so hurt/angry/pissed/ready to yell at someone was like 8 years ago - no this does not have to do with hockey or any sporting event.
I've worked with this person for 5.5 years and I am her supervisor. It's my responsibility that everything is planned and followed and changed when needed and etc. I've grown close to my coworkers and consider most of them friends. We have get togethers and parties and etc. But now I see how others say that there's a fine line between a coworker and a friend. I just didn't think I had to define the difference.
My coworker was caught violating one of our policies we have at work. I was not there but there were 17 other people in the room who witnessed it! Ugh... we don't use cell phones in public nor carry them in our pocket!!!! She had it out to take notes. sheesh! Disciplinary action was given and thinking this was over she called the head boss and was contesting the punishment. THEN, she said that I did it too!!!! She said she's seen me use my phone for personal use. My boss even stopped her and said that I can use my phone since I'm the Activity Coordinator!!!! That f'ing hurt me!!!! I don't know if that is just filipino mentality or what.. she wanted to save her butt by bringing other people down with her. BULLSHIT!
Ugh! This lady is almost 25 years older than me but I am her supervisor. At times I find it hard to tell her what to do but I think the hardest part is the way to communicate with her. She says she doesn't want to be treated like a child in yet from others they say that I spoon feed her - I do everything for her. To be honest, I know I do everything myself b/c it's faster!!!!!
I just don't know where to go from here. I wanted to talk to her and just let it out but I was told by my boss to give it time and just keep it professional - tell her what she needs to do. B/c of her complaint, she also added that we weren't strict enough to enforce the no use of cell phones and etc so now the policy has been updated NO CELL PHONE USE or carrying of cell phone and not allowed to use even during breaks!!!! If they want to use their phones they have to go outside away from the building LOL just like when someone wants to have a smoke!!!! Seriously this is our policy now. Now I have to be even more strict and I have the right to tell on others. Well, she wanted equality this is the result. I love that saying, "Be careful what you wish for, it just might come true."
This is all fresh but I'm trying to just move forward. I thought that if I just let out all here that I don't have to talk about it anymore. I quote from Anne of Green Gables "Tomorrow is always fresh with no mistakes in it." hee hee
My head hurts! I don't know if you've ever felt this way. But I just feel like I could never trust her again and honestly, I don't think I could talk to her the way I used to. For the first time, I think it is right for me to cut ties with her once work is over. We used to go out and etc. But I just don't feel like it. I don't need anyone to take sides or stop talking to her. I wouldn't want that.
To think that I helped her with her studies to pass a course, I've made her Cd's for her dancing, I helped her with her email and I gave up 5 hours of my own shift to her so that she gets more hours!!!! Why did I do that? Honestly, I have no answer. I hate the fact that I trusted her and did all these things for her and in return I was thrown under the bus with her so that she can save her ass! I was taught that if there was someone in need and I can help, help him/her and not to expect anything in return. But this was just too much for me.
For anyone out there that reads this... what's your advice? How would you move forward?
It's been so long since I've updated I doubt anyone will reply. But it made me feel better writing all this down. There's so much more I could type but I'll leave it at that. I hope to start posting pictures of projects I've done here. But Facebook is already a nice place to put them. hee hee Hope everyone is well. Wish this could have been a happier post. But maybe next time.