Okay with Being.
Have you ever had the sudden urge to do the most random things? The best things?
I want to get a car, steal a car, take someones car and just drive and drive until I hit a border or two. Watch a sunrise, and find a waterfall. Take pictures and write poems, tell stories that are finally my own. I want to sleep in parking lots, and find cheep restaurants that feed poor searching, college students like me. Owned by a mom and pop couple who have been married for fifty years and have twelve grandchildren. They will wrap up some key lime pie and a coke as I'm leaving, thinking I'm to thin and will say "no charge". It will be a Sunday, and I'll sneak into a small church in the back, and hear an amazing sermon and come home to a happy house barley making it home on the 50$ I had left to spend on gas.
I want to make a fuss at work, scream at angry customers, and get up on the cash register and sing at the top of my lungs how I don't care that they think something is cheaper than it is. Then tap dance to the horrible music they play.
I want to meet someone so new and random and just spend a whole day with them, and really get to know a person. Go on a random adventure, and end up kissing at the end of the night when it rains.
I want to get an industrial piercing and die my hair before I go to college. I want to make a statement all my own, screw if anyone else has done the same. Their life inst mine-and they haven't done what I've done. And someday, maybe someday I want to get a tattoo that says "HOPE" on the back of my left wrist.
I want to break the ties that are binding between my parents and myself, that let them take things and set rules that aren't theirs. Like my money, my sanity, my freedom of feeling certain things and letting me believe certain ways if i want to every once in a while.
I want to try every flavor of ice cream, jelly bean, and coffee before I'm twenty five. Mostly while I'm in NYC and loosing the weight dancing anyway, so it wont matter how much i eat.
I want to be okay with things I've never been okay with before, but have always wanted to be.
I just want to be okay with being.
I want to get a car, steal a car, take someones car and just drive and drive until I hit a border or two. Watch a sunrise, and find a waterfall. Take pictures and write poems, tell stories that are finally my own. I want to sleep in parking lots, and find cheep restaurants that feed poor searching, college students like me. Owned by a mom and pop couple who have been married for fifty years and have twelve grandchildren. They will wrap up some key lime pie and a coke as I'm leaving, thinking I'm to thin and will say "no charge". It will be a Sunday, and I'll sneak into a small church in the back, and hear an amazing sermon and come home to a happy house barley making it home on the 50$ I had left to spend on gas.
I want to make a fuss at work, scream at angry customers, and get up on the cash register and sing at the top of my lungs how I don't care that they think something is cheaper than it is. Then tap dance to the horrible music they play.
I want to meet someone so new and random and just spend a whole day with them, and really get to know a person. Go on a random adventure, and end up kissing at the end of the night when it rains.
I want to get an industrial piercing and die my hair before I go to college. I want to make a statement all my own, screw if anyone else has done the same. Their life inst mine-and they haven't done what I've done. And someday, maybe someday I want to get a tattoo that says "HOPE" on the back of my left wrist.
I want to break the ties that are binding between my parents and myself, that let them take things and set rules that aren't theirs. Like my money, my sanity, my freedom of feeling certain things and letting me believe certain ways if i want to every once in a while.
I want to try every flavor of ice cream, jelly bean, and coffee before I'm twenty five. Mostly while I'm in NYC and loosing the weight dancing anyway, so it wont matter how much i eat.
I want to be okay with things I've never been okay with before, but have always wanted to be.
I just want to be okay with being.