If it'll keep these days from getting shorter...
I don't know what's worse about today, how irritated I am, or how little everything is actually bothering me. I'm irritated and I don't know why, and I'm most likely pissing off everyone around me. Yet for some reason all the things that should, and usually would, upset me just don't. I think I'm annoyed at how little I care about everything right now. I want to do something about it, but the fact of the matter is that I simply don't care, and I can't see any way to go about changing that. I wish I cared about the way I look, or that I gave a damn about what people thought about me, but things like that require effort and I'm not willing to put any in. I must care a little or the fact that I didn't care wouldn't bother me, right? I think this is the part where I alienate myself from everyone, but that's not happening either which makes it even worse. Maybe this whole college thing will kick me back into shape. Gee, I sure hope so.