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hey, i know i already wrote today but i feel like writting again.. i am kinda in a weird mood right now, like im happy but yet im not.. it kinda sucks... i had fun tonite with morgan doug mike jason and callie but i dunno i juss feel shitty.. all i could think about tonight was this one guy, and i cant stop thinking about him.. i mean i know i cant get him anymore and i understand that but i juss cant stop thinking about him... have you ever had it where you like a person a whole bunch and they juss dont have the same feelings for you? thats kind of how i feel right now... its like i dunno i juss want to get over him so bad and i cant, and it really hurts.... and i try to move on to other guys but i feel like i cant, because i am always thinking about him... why do all guys hurt me, even if they dont mean to? i just dont get it... one minute they say they like you, and the next minute they dont even want to talk to you... its like frickin bipolar major! i dunno i juss hate it so much, i wish guys could just wish guys could understand girls better... and i wish i could understand guys better... i dunno i juss wish i could have done stuff differently so that he wouldn't ignore me and act like he doesnt want to have anything to do with me.. but i guess thats how life is, right? i mean you never get exactly what you want...