Feeling the Weird
Yes I'm coming back for my sporadic once in awhile posts to say the same thing I've typed a million times.
It's weird though.
Really weird.
I'm a 47 year old man, and I've only had two relationships in my life. Both lasted less than six months, and both were long distance.
That's weird.
I can point to a million flaws in my myself that could cause such a dearth in relationships, but it's still weird. You can't tell me it isn't. Like none of those flaws are that deeply horrendous. Somehow, it just seems that they were the perfect storm of not quite attractive traits combining to make a reasonably average decent guy not quite attractive to anyone.
Not that I'm looking for a relationship. I'm old. I'm deeply embedded in my single person ways. I just find myself drifting around in the mysterious paths of memories of personal history sometimes.
All I can come up with is that it's weird. Even with all my imperfections, it's weird. People just don't have lives like mine. It's at least incredibly rare.
Oh... and my back and hip hurt all the time. It's pissing me off. I'm not that old damn it. Unfortunately, there's nothing to really do about it. My job isn't one that allows for taking it easy and seeing if it will heal. I'm just going to have to hurt forever by my calculations.
It's weird though.
Really weird.
I'm a 47 year old man, and I've only had two relationships in my life. Both lasted less than six months, and both were long distance.
That's weird.
I can point to a million flaws in my myself that could cause such a dearth in relationships, but it's still weird. You can't tell me it isn't. Like none of those flaws are that deeply horrendous. Somehow, it just seems that they were the perfect storm of not quite attractive traits combining to make a reasonably average decent guy not quite attractive to anyone.
Not that I'm looking for a relationship. I'm old. I'm deeply embedded in my single person ways. I just find myself drifting around in the mysterious paths of memories of personal history sometimes.
All I can come up with is that it's weird. Even with all my imperfections, it's weird. People just don't have lives like mine. It's at least incredibly rare.
Oh... and my back and hip hurt all the time. It's pissing me off. I'm not that old damn it. Unfortunately, there's nothing to really do about it. My job isn't one that allows for taking it easy and seeing if it will heal. I'm just going to have to hurt forever by my calculations.