+ Feeling Better
Yesterday I restricted what I ate. I also went for a long and fast walk with Justin and the dogs. After breakfast I ate 2 tacos. I didn't want to but Justin bought them for me and he sat there and watched me eat them. So I didn't have much of a choice at all. For dinner I had a doughnut, yuckies, fat free strawberry yogurt and an apple. So I stepped on the scale this morning and I was 130. I know it's still 3 pounds higher than I was but it is better. I feel better and a lot more motivated. I know I can do this. I am setting my goal of 120 to the middle of this month right around the 15th. I know I can do it too. Exercising and not eating too much. I won't fast totally because I don't want to screw up my metabolism and it would be way to obvious to Justin if I totally stopped eating.
Still looking for a job. Gonna go apply at some places today. The sooner I get a job, the sooner Justin and I move out. The less stress we have. The cleaner our house is. It will be perfect. Just Justin, me and the dog. And maybe he'll get me a little Pomeranian or Chihuahua like I want. Ofcourse I still love my Pit Bull, who woke me up at 5 this morning because he wasn't feeling too good. Poor baby. I have a big test today. I hope I do good. I'll study. Right.... It's an essay test so I just need to know my shit and be able to B.S. my way through it. I'm usually pretty good at B.S.ing. So this morning I had Oatmeal, 130 cals and a sip of orange juice, like 20 cals, I'm guessing. It felt so good not to eat a lot yesterday. I feel like I have some control of my life. Yesterday all I could think was that my life was slipping away from me and there was no way I could stop it. I have a little control now. I'll get my life in order. I know I can do it. xoxox
Still looking for a job. Gonna go apply at some places today. The sooner I get a job, the sooner Justin and I move out. The less stress we have. The cleaner our house is. It will be perfect. Just Justin, me and the dog. And maybe he'll get me a little Pomeranian or Chihuahua like I want. Ofcourse I still love my Pit Bull, who woke me up at 5 this morning because he wasn't feeling too good. Poor baby. I have a big test today. I hope I do good. I'll study. Right.... It's an essay test so I just need to know my shit and be able to B.S. my way through it. I'm usually pretty good at B.S.ing. So this morning I had Oatmeal, 130 cals and a sip of orange juice, like 20 cals, I'm guessing. It felt so good not to eat a lot yesterday. I feel like I have some control of my life. Yesterday all I could think was that my life was slipping away from me and there was no way I could stop it. I have a little control now. I'll get my life in order. I know I can do it. xoxox