Dreams and Reality...
Well I had a great week last week. I spent some time in Muskegon hanging out with Deb, Chanol, Lily and baby Miriam. I held the baby so much I had to remember to get pictures of her before I left. Then when I left there I went up to Bear Lake to get ready for the Pagan Center camping trip. I worked hard friday preparing the campsite, fire pit and collecting fire wood. It felt great to do so much outdoor physical work and not be held back by my size and unhealthyness. The rest of the group showed up Friday and we had a great weekend. We packed alot into a couple days. Sunday was my 29th birthday and thought brought happiness and sadness all together. I don't care about my age but about life plans that cannot come to fruition. I had planned for the last 4 years that on my 29th birthday I would have a ritual for getting rid of all forms of birth control and to move to the next phase of my life, motherhood. Because of my health however I am not ready to move on and it hurt, alot! And to add to the hurt I was fertile on my 29th birthday and had to fight the urge to just say fuck it and fuck charlie. And to top it off I got stung by something in the middle of the night saturday night on my ring finger so I took of my wedding bands and engagement ring in case of swelling and when I went to put them back on Sunday I was missing one of my wedding bands. So I am really glad to have had so much happiness during the weekend to drown out the unhappiness! Thanks guys, you have no idea how much you saved me from a miserable birthday!
I had a doctor's appt (by phone) on last thursday and things are looking up in that area. I finally had really good results on my Candida and Parasite tendency test. The monthly results had been creeping towards less candida and parasites but this month was a major change. I was really hoping that my doctor was going to move me to the next part of phase 2 but he said to "ride the wave". He did say that this is the pivotal point and if I keep up the diet I should be past this part of the healing really soon. That is really good news and I am really excited to be seeing such great results, finally. I actually had noticed some really great feelings of health this last month, I am feeling really "alive" again, I feel as though I am awakening or coming out of a deep brain fog. My eyes are getting bluer again. I keep losing size but not weight, which is awsome because it means that my metabolism is kicking in finally. My digestion is getting better. I am feeling better than I have in a very long time. I can't imagine how good I am going to feel when I get done with the whole program!
Tomorrow is my first day back to work and I am not really looking forward to it. I love not working, but alas I need the money so off to work I go.
I had a doctor's appt (by phone) on last thursday and things are looking up in that area. I finally had really good results on my Candida and Parasite tendency test. The monthly results had been creeping towards less candida and parasites but this month was a major change. I was really hoping that my doctor was going to move me to the next part of phase 2 but he said to "ride the wave". He did say that this is the pivotal point and if I keep up the diet I should be past this part of the healing really soon. That is really good news and I am really excited to be seeing such great results, finally. I actually had noticed some really great feelings of health this last month, I am feeling really "alive" again, I feel as though I am awakening or coming out of a deep brain fog. My eyes are getting bluer again. I keep losing size but not weight, which is awsome because it means that my metabolism is kicking in finally. My digestion is getting better. I am feeling better than I have in a very long time. I can't imagine how good I am going to feel when I get done with the whole program!
Tomorrow is my first day back to work and I am not really looking forward to it. I love not working, but alas I need the money so off to work I go.